if you haven't gathered, i'm the kind of girl that cannot take a complement. i mean, i will say thank you and all that, but when someone tells me i'm attractive or smart or funny, i can't help but second guess it, no matter who's saying it.
this problem, among many, is dragging me down.
i know simply from AP psych that your teens and twenties are where you peak physically, and then it's all downhill from there. i spent most of my teen years awkward and alone, and now that i'm a few years into my twenties, i feel like i'm already at the bottom of the hill. this isn't an attempt for complements, trust me. i just feel like i lack the social skills needed in obtaining and keeping a mate. both platonic and romantic.
at the end of the summer, most of my friends will have moved out of the city. i am alone. i have the option of a single apartment if i need it. but honestly, i'm kind of scared to live alone. i've cut ties with a lot of bad friends, but now i feel like i cut too many, even though it really is for the better.
basically, i'm paranoid that now that i'm out of school (which for some doubles as a dating scene), i'm out of a social loop, and will never find anyone who likes me again. i'm afraid there is something wrong with me that drives people away. it's starting to feel that way. i don't go to bars. i hardly ever go to shows. all i do is work and go home. it's really a sad existence.
Only people of a certain disposition are sure they're going to be alone for the rest of their lives at age 22, and i am of that disposition.
this problem, among many, is dragging me down.
i know simply from AP psych that your teens and twenties are where you peak physically, and then it's all downhill from there. i spent most of my teen years awkward and alone, and now that i'm a few years into my twenties, i feel like i'm already at the bottom of the hill. this isn't an attempt for complements, trust me. i just feel like i lack the social skills needed in obtaining and keeping a mate. both platonic and romantic.
at the end of the summer, most of my friends will have moved out of the city. i am alone. i have the option of a single apartment if i need it. but honestly, i'm kind of scared to live alone. i've cut ties with a lot of bad friends, but now i feel like i cut too many, even though it really is for the better.
basically, i'm paranoid that now that i'm out of school (which for some doubles as a dating scene), i'm out of a social loop, and will never find anyone who likes me again. i'm afraid there is something wrong with me that drives people away. it's starting to feel that way. i don't go to bars. i hardly ever go to shows. all i do is work and go home. it's really a sad existence.
Only people of a certain disposition are sure they're going to be alone for the rest of their lives at age 22, and i am of that disposition.
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Besides, you've got it made 'cause you're so attractive, smart, and funny!