i'm afraid that vanish was correct. as i study more and more i find myself more and more drawn to that which i study. cognizant yet helpless. is this of what i was so afraid? nothing really matters anymore. time slips by like water through a sieve. i do not really care anymore. why should I?
so go i say. it does not matter anyway.
so go i say. it does not matter anyway.
i think you had the answer all along, don't forget to look for the good, the divine, the beauty, in the daily sparks of joy and life all around you stay up!
"It was called "The Traitor." It was about the feeling that we have of betraying some mission that we were mandated to fulfill and being unable to fulfill it, and then coming to understand that the real mandate was not to fulfill it, and that the deeper courage was to stand guiltless in the predicament in which you found yourself." - Leonard Cohen
all i want is somebody to dig the hole for my grave when i die. 36 is too old.