gingerlie

wow. so i go out to dinner with the boy tonight and tell him everything about how im feeling, about how i want to be alone, about how i want to leave and go to school somewhere far away, about how im sick of relying on a relationship or one person etc. everything id been hiding for months trying to figure out, and he actually took it like a grown up.he was so civil about everything. agreed with me about how i need to go off and do what i have to for myself. totally not him at all, but i feel so much better now. now if only my arms and back didnt hurt from carrying around fucking giant ass paintings all day. im much too little to carrying giant boxes very carefully because theres no way in fuck id be able to afford to replace it. things might be looking up. my jobs going great, i have so many more responsibilities at work now its fantastic. yay for things finally going my way if only for one day.