i miss my best friend like crazy. shes one of the few girls ive ever gotten along with. i think its just because shes crazy enough to say exactly what she thinks or feels. weve gotten along since the first day we met almost 7 years ago. shes been there through the hardest times in my life and now i hate that shes so far away. weve not lived near eachother for quite awhile.
she took me in last year when i was homeless and treated me like a princess, and the only time ive ever seen her cry was when i moved back in with my then boyfriend in januaray. shes the tiniest girl ive ever met but shes tough as fuck, and now shes pregnant and i cant be around her for it.
she caught me on aim today tho and totally cheered me up. i think i love her more than anyone in the world. shes more like family to me than even my family. i appreciate her opinion more than anyones, so im glad we talked. we both get these awful anxiety attacks i believe from some shitty acid we took once. it was her first time and i wanted her to trip with just me. since then we both get horrible ones, but theyre exactly the same. it just makes us closer. so she can calm me down in a matter of minutes. one day i hope i get to go see her and the baby.
i hurt someone this weekend whom i never ment to ever hurt, or involve. it bothers me so much that this person who was neutral is now angry with me. i cant explain to him what happened because i dont know. i didnt think before i opened my mouth. it makes me angry that when i dont mean to hurt people i do. i cant stand that bit of vulnerability.
jesus so its 7:30am, and im awake because i feel really sick. i hate this. i want medicine and theres no one here to ask to go get me any, or to rub my tummy. so water and more sleep i guess
she took me in last year when i was homeless and treated me like a princess, and the only time ive ever seen her cry was when i moved back in with my then boyfriend in januaray. shes the tiniest girl ive ever met but shes tough as fuck, and now shes pregnant and i cant be around her for it.
she caught me on aim today tho and totally cheered me up. i think i love her more than anyone in the world. shes more like family to me than even my family. i appreciate her opinion more than anyones, so im glad we talked. we both get these awful anxiety attacks i believe from some shitty acid we took once. it was her first time and i wanted her to trip with just me. since then we both get horrible ones, but theyre exactly the same. it just makes us closer. so she can calm me down in a matter of minutes. one day i hope i get to go see her and the baby.
i hurt someone this weekend whom i never ment to ever hurt, or involve. it bothers me so much that this person who was neutral is now angry with me. i cant explain to him what happened because i dont know. i didnt think before i opened my mouth. it makes me angry that when i dont mean to hurt people i do. i cant stand that bit of vulnerability.
jesus so its 7:30am, and im awake because i feel really sick. i hate this. i want medicine and theres no one here to ask to go get me any, or to rub my tummy. so water and more sleep i guess
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I hope you quit sweatin' stuff so much - there's so much more to life without so much stress to trip on. So much energy is just wasted that way. Live.
Remember, the offer to crash here still stands.