Im so hung over 
A friend and I went on a bar crawl last night.
Way fun but way too much rum and coke. It was nice to fall asleep
in his arms w/ my head on his chest and not go home alone sad thinking about B. I never really
slept in B's arms that way. We would spoon but his chest was not cuddly.
A dear musician friend of mine moved back to Charlottesville a year ago. He was friends w/ the guys from DMB way back before they we're big. He even played w/ some of them at local bars. Anyway, he was telling me about Leroi's funeral today. Aside from it being very sad and rainy it was beautiful. Dave did the eulogy. There were about 500 friends and family there. My friend said Leroi was a great person. My heart goes out to all that a mourning his death.
Im going thru my anger stage now. I know I was the one to break it off and it wasn't even the first time but it's still not easy. I did love him or still do right now. With each day I think about the things he did that made me feel not loved and it helps. B did a lot of wonderful things too but the not wonderful things always stand out more.
We did have lots of fun doing things together. We should have never gotten back together after I broke up w/ him the first time last year. I think we could have been great friends.
A friend and I went on a bar crawl last night.
Way fun but way too much rum and coke. It was nice to fall asleep
in his arms w/ my head on his chest and not go home alone sad thinking about B. I never really
slept in B's arms that way. We would spoon but his chest was not cuddly.
A dear musician friend of mine moved back to Charlottesville a year ago. He was friends w/ the guys from DMB way back before they we're big. He even played w/ some of them at local bars. Anyway, he was telling me about Leroi's funeral today. Aside from it being very sad and rainy it was beautiful. Dave did the eulogy. There were about 500 friends and family there. My friend said Leroi was a great person. My heart goes out to all that a mourning his death.
Im going thru my anger stage now. I know I was the one to break it off and it wasn't even the first time but it's still not easy. I did love him or still do right now. With each day I think about the things he did that made me feel not loved and it helps. B did a lot of wonderful things too but the not wonderful things always stand out more.
We did have lots of fun doing things together. We should have never gotten back together after I broke up w/ him the first time last year. I think we could have been great friends.
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sydfloyd:
Awww. Well don't be too hard on yourself. For me it took the experience to help me make that personal rule of making breakups permanent.
lilli:
Hang in there, sweetie. 