It's late and I can't sleep. 
Greatnow my lip is bleeding. The other night at work I neglected to read on the hot pocket wrapper "contents may be hot". I still probably wouldn't have believed it was hot enough to burn my lip to an instant blistering point! It looked like I had cheese stuck to my bottom lip but really was a nasty white blister that now has turned into a scab which at this moment is bleeding!
Despite fears from old baggage and natural feelings concerning a new relationship I'm super excited about this wonderful love. Yes, we've rushed it but we both just let it take it's desire. We have decided now to ease back and breath, to come down off the clouds and take care of some reality and responsibility. I'm soooo pleased he agrees. We'll have lots of time to take dreamy holidays together. I love him for wanting to spend every moment w/ me but it's such a turn on to see him work hard and strive for his dreams too. I have great respect for him not only as a friend and lover but as a man. We'll miss each other but it will remind us not to take one another for granted and cherish our time even more. I know he's the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. And, because of that I know there is no need to rush things. The excitement day to day, the love he gives and the happiness we have knowing we are is already incredible.
Greatnow my lip is bleeding. The other night at work I neglected to read on the hot pocket wrapper "contents may be hot". I still probably wouldn't have believed it was hot enough to burn my lip to an instant blistering point! It looked like I had cheese stuck to my bottom lip but really was a nasty white blister that now has turned into a scab which at this moment is bleeding!
Despite fears from old baggage and natural feelings concerning a new relationship I'm super excited about this wonderful love. Yes, we've rushed it but we both just let it take it's desire. We have decided now to ease back and breath, to come down off the clouds and take care of some reality and responsibility. I'm soooo pleased he agrees. We'll have lots of time to take dreamy holidays together. I love him for wanting to spend every moment w/ me but it's such a turn on to see him work hard and strive for his dreams too. I have great respect for him not only as a friend and lover but as a man. We'll miss each other but it will remind us not to take one another for granted and cherish our time even more. I know he's the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. And, because of that I know there is no need to rush things. The excitement day to day, the love he gives and the happiness we have knowing we are is already incredible.
I was trying so hard to keep you, I stopped being the man you fell in love with.
I lost focus - I wanted to spend all my time with you because you make me so happy - but I should have focused more on myself and resolved all my problems sooner.
I know if I'm ever going to have a chance, I need to start over and prove that I really am the MAN you fell in love with and not just another childish boy.
Starting with getting my life back in order first, before I can ever think of starting a new life with you.