gingerkiss

So much for will power.
I went w/ Josh to visit his son.
We had a nice time. His son generally
plays w/ his frined the whole time.
So Josh and I watch tv on a small
sofa in Josh's mom's study.
I asked Josh to take me on a date Sat after
his son went to bed. We had a good time.
I love Josh so much. I'm still sad that
he dosen't want a child w/ me in the future.
I don't think about it as often as I thought I
would but there are things that triger it. Some
times when I listen to him talk, just talk about his day,
I fall in love w/ him and wish we were going to have
a family some day. I'm going to enjoy my time w/ him
and know everything will turn out for the best, for
everyone.

ginger