Life sucks.
Want to know why?
1. My grandmother looks so much worse than she did 10 months ago. She's frail, she looks tiny, she's on oxygen, she can hardly talk, she can hardly stand, and even worse; doctors have given up on her.
She's only 73.
2. A good friend from Townsville fell 14 stories from an appartment building. He's been in IC for three or four weeks now. He's an amazing guy, and I feel lucky to have met him, even if it was only for a short time. I want him to get better.
3. I'm 6000 in debt. Australia was worth it, it's just going to take me so fucking long to get out of it. It makes me feel stressed and out of control, and I don't like it.
4. I'm not welcome at my moms place. I'm staying here until I have my own place. Initially she said it wouldn't be a problem to stay until at least the end of the year, but I think she's changed her mind as she's constantly hinting towards me finding and getting my own place.
I am looking, but I'm not going to find anything with 6000 debt and only a 6 month contract.
If I do find a place, I'll be eating baked beans for at least a year.
5. My stepdad called me arrogant, egocentrical, said I only think about myself, and told me that my character has not improved after my trip to Australia.
It hurt to hear that.
6. My parents hate eachother. This is not a new thing, but after being away for the weekend with my dad and my dad dropping me off at my moms place made me so stressed about my mom seeing my dad that I promptly started to cry when I walked in the door.
7. The realisation that I'll probably never see most of the awesome friends I've made in Australia again.
I think that's all.
Of course there are reasons why life's good too.
I've got a new job. A job that every dumb shitkicker is able to do.
I've got awesome Dutch friends, who love me, and are very happy that I'm back.
Still, the bad outweighs the good today.
Want to know why?
1. My grandmother looks so much worse than she did 10 months ago. She's frail, she looks tiny, she's on oxygen, she can hardly talk, she can hardly stand, and even worse; doctors have given up on her.
She's only 73.
2. A good friend from Townsville fell 14 stories from an appartment building. He's been in IC for three or four weeks now. He's an amazing guy, and I feel lucky to have met him, even if it was only for a short time. I want him to get better.
3. I'm 6000 in debt. Australia was worth it, it's just going to take me so fucking long to get out of it. It makes me feel stressed and out of control, and I don't like it.
4. I'm not welcome at my moms place. I'm staying here until I have my own place. Initially she said it wouldn't be a problem to stay until at least the end of the year, but I think she's changed her mind as she's constantly hinting towards me finding and getting my own place.
I am looking, but I'm not going to find anything with 6000 debt and only a 6 month contract.
If I do find a place, I'll be eating baked beans for at least a year.
5. My stepdad called me arrogant, egocentrical, said I only think about myself, and told me that my character has not improved after my trip to Australia.
It hurt to hear that.
6. My parents hate eachother. This is not a new thing, but after being away for the weekend with my dad and my dad dropping me off at my moms place made me so stressed about my mom seeing my dad that I promptly started to cry when I walked in the door.
7. The realisation that I'll probably never see most of the awesome friends I've made in Australia again.
I think that's all.
Of course there are reasons why life's good too.
I've got a new job. A job that every dumb shitkicker is able to do.
I've got awesome Dutch friends, who love me, and are very happy that I'm back.
Still, the bad outweighs the good today.
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