So I had a talk with the boy. He told me he has been thinking a lot about wanting to be with me and me going to Australia. I told him I wasn't going to wait for it forever, and I want an answer soon. It's gonna be yes or no, and I want to know by the end of the week. If I have to wait for him it can take up to a month I think.
I wish I could influence the choice he's gonna make, but on the other hand, I don't want to feel like I have to sell/ promote myself. He knows me by now. He's got enough to make a decision.
It's hard waiting for someone to decide if he thinks it's worth being with me until I go away. And when he does say yes, it will be just a tiny victory for me. My mom told me to build a little wall around my heart, but I think it's too late for that now.
I feel kinda lame waiting. I mean, if it's such a tough decision for him, shouldn't I just back out myself?
And I just don't get it. It's still 7 months until I go. By then, he might not even like me anymore.
I'm at home sick now. I miss my colleagues. They're such great ppl. I think I'm gonna work again tomorrow. Don't think I'll feel much better tomorrow, but I don't think it can get much worse. I have a bladder infection, so I'm drinking two bottles of cranberry juice a day, which works great J.
Sorry for the unhappy blogs lately, but I just want to share. And everyone here is so nice.
Sunday my best friend will get her ankle tattooed with something I designed for her. I think I'm just as excited as she is. I'll post pictures as soon as I'm home.
That's all for now.
Have a nice day.
XXX
I wish I could influence the choice he's gonna make, but on the other hand, I don't want to feel like I have to sell/ promote myself. He knows me by now. He's got enough to make a decision.
It's hard waiting for someone to decide if he thinks it's worth being with me until I go away. And when he does say yes, it will be just a tiny victory for me. My mom told me to build a little wall around my heart, but I think it's too late for that now.
I feel kinda lame waiting. I mean, if it's such a tough decision for him, shouldn't I just back out myself?
And I just don't get it. It's still 7 months until I go. By then, he might not even like me anymore.
I'm at home sick now. I miss my colleagues. They're such great ppl. I think I'm gonna work again tomorrow. Don't think I'll feel much better tomorrow, but I don't think it can get much worse. I have a bladder infection, so I'm drinking two bottles of cranberry juice a day, which works great J.
Sorry for the unhappy blogs lately, but I just want to share. And everyone here is so nice.
Sunday my best friend will get her ankle tattooed with something I designed for her. I think I'm just as excited as she is. I'll post pictures as soon as I'm home.
That's all for now.
Have a nice day.
XXX
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jace:
Long distance relationships suck. I hope yours turns out better than mine have in the past.
schmooziesan:
And did you hear from him yet?