... I'd rather write than meditate, anyway ...
Let's see. Clackety-clack. I know there's something in my brain just now that's not random or mundane.
Like my heartfelt fondness for submission and sex with pain.
Jon tells me I'm a little girl incapable of taking care of myself.
From him, it's a compliment.
To him, I'm another potential future concubine.
I know he's trying to brainwash me but I'm too interested in what he'll say next to stop talking to him.
He says he's an island of emotional safety in a very unsafe world.
And he wants me to tell him WHAT?
I'm screwed up in the head WHY?
I lied to him about my dreams because I wanted him to think I believe in him.
He says he can see me when I sleep even though he lives 1,500 miles away.
I get off on manipulating him because he claims he can't be manipulated.
I am wasting his time.
I am wasting my time.
Let's see. Clackety-clack. I know there's something in my brain just now that's not random or mundane.
Like my heartfelt fondness for submission and sex with pain.
Jon tells me I'm a little girl incapable of taking care of myself.
From him, it's a compliment.
To him, I'm another potential future concubine.
I know he's trying to brainwash me but I'm too interested in what he'll say next to stop talking to him.
He says he's an island of emotional safety in a very unsafe world.
And he wants me to tell him WHAT?
I'm screwed up in the head WHY?
I lied to him about my dreams because I wanted him to think I believe in him.
He says he can see me when I sleep even though he lives 1,500 miles away.
I get off on manipulating him because he claims he can't be manipulated.
I am wasting his time.
I am wasting my time.
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a35mmlife:
i just want to be manipulated.
croncheee:
That's fawkin ossom you're into Against Me. They were here a lil bit ago and rocked out. I love "Jamaican me crazy" sucha good song.