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Last night was well insane.
Where to start.

I was upstairs watching some tv and eating pizza, Chris was watering the front lawn. All of a sudden Chris runs up and he is crying hysterically I ask what's wrong but he says that he doesn't know. He sits in his usual spot and can't sit still and he gets up and goes to the bathroom. At this point my mom comes upstairs and asks what's going on and I have to tell her I don't know cause really I don't. He comes back in sits down again then gets up and hops in the shower down stairs. Then my Dad comes up and asks what's wrong, I still have no answer.
Chris comes back up again and sits in his spot with hi head down on the bed still crying. Also shaking and twitching. My mom comes up again and talks to Chris, all she can get out of him that there are thoughts in his head and that he wants to hurt himself and others. And that it isn't her fault (go back a few journals to see that mess) Then she leaves and my brother whose bedroom is right across from ours talks to Chris gets the same info out of him. And like my mom tells him that he is loved and that we are all there for him and that no one wants him to hurt himself.
After he leaves I talk to Chris. Right away I know that this isn't a depression thing. All the twitching and scratching and shaking. I know it's a drug thing. I look for his pain pills (Darvcet) WE filled it on Friday 60 pills there was only 14 left. He took 5 or so on Friday none Saturday and the rest Sunday and Yesterday. The most Yesterday.
Well after I got him a cold wet washcloth he stared spilling his guts with me asking very few questions. Apparently this pill thing has been going on since he was young. He said that he lost his friends and then started the pills which made him depressed. I asked if it was really his friends leaving then ills or pills then friends leaving, he didn't know. He also took pills from his parents and his parents gave him pills. So pissed off at them from fucking up their son like that. They also let him do X, Acid, Shrooms and drink all in their house with no discipline at all. Crazy hippie pot heads (they stopped pot now they can' afford it anymore) I can not believe they would willingly give their son hardcore pain pills .
He goes on that while at OSH his previous job 2 of his co-worker friends would give him pills if he asked for them. A huge beast of a man and a skin cancer survivor. Pills include vicodin, valium, soma, norco ......... He also met an old man named Bob there. Who he would do favors for like take hi to the market or carry heavy objects. Well apparently Bob also had Chris steal from Osh and then give him 100's of pills at a time in payment. I don't know why some people think it's ok to give someone else their RX pain meds, just stupid. Chris got fired for stealing by the way not just for Bob but for stuff around the house too. Both our faults and we know that and we are sorry and feel very dumb.
This pill thing has been going on our whole marriage, and I didn't know till last night when he told me. Apparently he didn't want me to find out cause he thinks I would hate him fr it (I don't, sad that he kept it from me and sad for him) I am very anti drug, no smoking of anything, no drugs, no drinking I don't even like to take RX drugs if I don't have to. Luckily I don't have to just multi vitamins and calcium and vitamin D and B12 all good things. Hell I don't even like energy drinks cause all that taurine and junk in it or artificial sugar, that stuff makes my stomach hurt. Anyways that's why he didn't tell me. And where did he keep all the pills he told me in his pocket all the time so I wouldn't find them. I did catch him a few times And really got pissed off at him for it. And thought he stopped, so wrong. I have always been a hard ass with him about his pain pills cause I know that he can have a problem with them, I didn't know how bad his problem already was. Looking back now all those times he was an asshole and bitchy is when he didn't have any pain pills to take. And all the times he was depressed was when he had too many pain pills. I feel like such a failure for not seeing it sooner and helping him, but I did try to regulate his pills he just hid all the rest from me.
He wants to get help, stupid Doctor has no appointments for today. He also told me not to let him see Bob or Greg an to take away his pain pills from him. He''l have to come to me for any pain meds. And my parents and bro know too to not have any pain meds around the house where he can get them. Something they didn't do for me when I OD'd on pain meds at 18 by the way. He also want to go to some kind of meeting but I want him to get help from our Doctor too. So all his pain isn't even real pain, at one point it was but now we can't believe him when he says that he hurts. He still has to take his arthritis meds and all his others he can do that on his own cause he doesn't have a problem with those but I might take them away too and give them to him myself. And no more pain Rx at all. He would go through them in a just a few days and then want more. So nope no more.
I kept him up late so he would cool down and eat and drink and stop twitching and itching. He is still asleep now and I need to go get him soon. And then we need to figure out what to do with him.

So that was last night

Any advice would sure be helpful here,