SO....I am finally getting enough sleep....Bought a ac unit yesterday...had to...it was hot...(I know there are places hotter without ac) but I was losing sleep....not good....
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I have to vent about something because people aren't being honest with me.....So I am upset about something and I don't know if it should really be bothering me....I kind of heard thru the grapevine that my friends who I thought were close to me want to do things without me....now I AM NOT Jealous!!! The thing is......okay I do sound psycho......but here it goes.....
(time warp this may) SO I went on vacation with two of who I thought were my closest friends and Jodi...my lover/wife....We went to universal studios and Hollywood...I had different plans than everyone else and got voted out of going to Hollywood first, universal later...not a big deal....but with the communication out of sync I threw a temper tantrum....because I wanted to see Hollywood...and didn't want to get my plans blown to pieces...not that we couldn't go back... Any who.....we get back home and I thought everything was okay.....
Now (time warp to about a month ago)...Jodi and I get into it because on of said friends is in a lot of trouble and didn't have a job and wasn't paying rent ( I didn't know!!!!!!!) Said friend was suppose to be working off the rent....Okay Jodi is landlord therefor she is god...riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight...then said friend needs to lay off my liquor!
Now (time warp two days ago)....I am a bad friend..I thought after listen to this bird tell me what is being said about me. (my feelings are hurt) I heard thru this bird (don't know if it is true) but said friends don't want to hang out with me anymore.when they are together...osmetimes it feels like said friend when alone would rather hug a catus than spend 5 mins alone with me...why can't they tell me? End the fucking drama of hearing it thru something else and instead of bringing up shit that makes me die inside BE A FUCKING FRIEND!!!!
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I cried for hours the other night because me and roomates and jodi were talking about shit that has happened that is so shitty in my life....heartstrings got pulled...and life isn't perfect...sucks but we are all alive for a reason
I hope everyone is having a wonderful summer
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but, uhm.... <3? i dunno a better thing to say, besides i dunno who wouldnt wanna hang out with you.
The end of your rant is what I was going to say. If these people were truly your friends, they should have come to you and told you what their qualms with you were. God knows why they felt they couldn't do this and instead decided to do this immature talking behind your back bullshit. Now that you know what they have been feeling/saying, perhaps the best thing for you to do is be the better person and talk to them about what has been going on? Be the wonderful, amazing, mature person that I know you are and hopefully you all will be able to work out whatever it is that is going on.
Good luck with everything lovely!