no makeup today. i've been dealing with a lot of hate and i'm just shattering. it kinda sucks to "not be alone" but you feel 100 percent on your own. i go through intervals of bad depression and i'm in one now. i try to keep a smile on my face. but old addictions linger in my atmosphere begging to rekindle our love.
i wish people could give me the high those addictions did. i wish someone could be there for me as much as they were. but i don't think anyone will sacrifice things for me like the sacrificing of my addiction did for them. they have me, 100 percent of them time now, and i only have them half.... but being an addict, half isn't even enough.
austercise:
Half is never enough, but continue to give 100 percent all of the time. It's the only way to survive. Beautiful smile too 