people ever since the freakin 60's have been like "rock is dead" and im just thinkin to myself here in 2004 .... "hmmm if rock is dead then why are there tons of bands out there rocking right now as we speak and selling out?" ( i was listening to the doors version of Albinonis adagio in g minor and he says rock is dead at the end)
i suppose ill get a haircut today, then shower and shave fully, go to porter and chester at 5 and sign up for an automotive program possibly... i may renew my SG account too because i figure 18 dollars for 3 months really really isnt that bad when i lok at how i used to pay like 40 for online video games that entertained me half as much and didnt supply as many wonderful friends as this place has.
P.S. erik thank you for talking to me last night it was really nice of you. I cant remember anything that was said but i remember the feeling and such.... so thank you very much.
Thank you Sunni too for not being mad at me. Yeah i know i do this stuff sometimes and i know you hate it... im a pretty unstable fella hah. But i do remember saying some things to you and i wanted you to know i meant em and all. (nice things)
im glad i mean the world to you
i feel that way bout ya too, its just i get scared that once i make it clear to you that ill end up getting crushed emotionally somehow. Buuuut im tryin to fix that. i guess people can say im foolish for saying this stuff i dunno but.... i really like you sunni and id call you but i know when we talk is pretty much in your control only heh. (sorta sucks) but i hope we get to talk soon cause i miss you and that sort of stufff.....etc....
i suppose ill get a haircut today, then shower and shave fully, go to porter and chester at 5 and sign up for an automotive program possibly... i may renew my SG account too because i figure 18 dollars for 3 months really really isnt that bad when i lok at how i used to pay like 40 for online video games that entertained me half as much and didnt supply as many wonderful friends as this place has.
P.S. erik thank you for talking to me last night it was really nice of you. I cant remember anything that was said but i remember the feeling and such.... so thank you very much.
Thank you Sunni too for not being mad at me. Yeah i know i do this stuff sometimes and i know you hate it... im a pretty unstable fella hah. But i do remember saying some things to you and i wanted you to know i meant em and all. (nice things)
im glad i mean the world to you
i feel that way bout ya too, its just i get scared that once i make it clear to you that ill end up getting crushed emotionally somehow. Buuuut im tryin to fix that. i guess people can say im foolish for saying this stuff i dunno but.... i really like you sunni and id call you but i know when we talk is pretty much in your control only heh. (sorta sucks) but i hope we get to talk soon cause i miss you and that sort of stufff.....etc....VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
I was traveling with my cousin around here and there, there was this beautiful girl in some sort of... meeting place for the public? i guess they served food too i dunno, there was one long row of red leather seats an di was sittin on a part of it with my cous, then the girl sat next to me, she was silent but i looked at her, she was like "is something wrong?" and i said "no" but i said it really nervous and shaky. then she said "whats wrong?" and i said "nothing" in this totally nervous shaky near crying way. She became concerned, every now and then wed look back at each other, she would say somethin really nice, and it was going well until my nose started to bleed and i had to go fix it, when i came back she was talking to someone else.
alot of weird undescribable things happened... basically my whole family and relatives we were all in this gigantic house after that was basically my grandmas, but my mother kept following my trying to force something positive in my face, so i kept running up these stairs into different elaborate bedrooms in the house screaming at her to die and how much i hated her, how much i wanted her to stay the fuck away from me. Then my dad came in and was pumping out this gas stuff from a tank at me to punish me and i was trying to kill him, so he started putting it on my mom and i tried ot kill him while he was distracted.
They tried to cheer me up again by showing me a scene they made of me in the rain fighting some guy and winning, but i said "fuck you" to all of them and said "i am just going to lose in this movie, i always lose, i am a failure" and i walked off. everything turned into this gigantic sort of aquariam. it was all water in the middle but the left and right sides were more full of water and al these freaky lookin colored fish (i hate those fuckin fish like that) my mom was chasin me up and up these differnet levels of fish rooms like that and i kept trying to get away but secretly i wanted her to come up because i was scared of all these fish and got stuck in between the lil waterish walls that sepereated me from two really really freaky disgusting fish rooms.
then i dissapeared and i was awake during a japanese festival... everyone was dressed up like it was halloween but this was some celebratiojn they had jan 1st-11th... eveyone was dressed up in white paper sheet like costumes, with the paper lights, or in large pumpkin outfits.
There were many kids running up a steep hill in these costumes giggling. i became one of them in my pumpkin costuem running up with excitement. but i just realized i was now a child in japan running up with a new life as a kid all over again and everyone i knew was gone forever.
i started to burst into hard bitter tears as i smiled running up the hill that never ended. i cried so hard then i woke up.