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-Perpetual, by VNV Nation-
Find it in you, raise your eyes
Look beyond the place you stand
Towards the furthest reaches
And to the smallest of things
The sound you are hearing
Is the symphony of what we are
Revelation will not come
With heart and mind closed and divided

No need of sun to light the way
Across the ages, we have reigned as...
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Twenty-six years and seems like I've just begun
To understand my, my intimate is no one
When the director sold the show, who bought its last rites?
They cut the cast, the music, and the lights

This is my line, this is eternal
How did I ever end up here?
Discarnate, preternatural
My prayers to disappear
Absent of grace, marked as infernal
Ungranted in dead...
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"Something I Can Never Have"

I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.

[Chorus:]
Come on tell me.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing....
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Ten Minute Romance, by Bury Your Dead
No more heart broken songs, get over it move on, lets wipe those tears away from that pretty face, that pretty fucking face, no more crying to your dashboard records you sappy emo bitch, we are all born alone and we all die alone forget about your problems just for one night, no more crying theres only death...
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---Inhale Exhale by Rollins Band---
Inhale resolve
Exhale ambition
Inhale all need
Exhale all I want
Inhale love of life
Exhale fear of death
Inhale power
Exhale force

I have all I need
I can't live without
I have all I need
I can't live without

Inhale tolerance
Exhale judgment
Inhale what I am
Exhale what I think I am

I have all I need...
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still nothing new to report, but i thought i'd share part of an email conversation between James and myself.

hmmm...the context of what's going on....that sounds like it could be a very loaded phrase (no offense).
let's see if i can answer this in a way that's comprehensible for a civilian, without coming off as either a war whore or a sob story.
do i...
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still alive, just nothing new going on...hope everyone is fine and all is well.

::message ends::

wow...a new record for me today.

every time i opened my mouth, i put both fucking feet and most of my legs in it.

i think maybe i should just stop talking. or writing....or leaving the house/barracks.

what the hell is wrong with me?

-josh

"They say true love only comes around once and you have to hold out and be strong until then. I have been waiting. I have been searching. I am a man under the moon, walking the streets of earth until dawn. There's got to be someone for me. It's not too much to ask. Just someone to be with. Someone to love. Someone to give...
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Lying all alone and restless unable to lose this image
Sleepless unable to focus on anything but your surrender
Tuggin a rhythm to the vision that's in my head
Tuggin a beat to the sight of you lying
So delighted with a new understanding
Something about a little evil that makes that unmistakable noise
I was hearing unmistakable sound i know so well
Spent and...
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