Hey everyone,
I know it has been a while since my last posting. I took 2 short mini vacations so I wasn't on the computer as much as I am used to. We went to Maine for Columbus Day and had a wonderful time. The weather was a bit brisk, but beautiful. We had a blast! I ate enough lobster and oysters to last me for quite sometime!
On Halloween I made my annual trip to NYC for the parade. It was incredible as usual. We did get drenched when it decided to rain, but the temperature was warm enough so we made it through. The crowd was incredible this year. Since it was a Saturday there were tons of people there. And we only spotted like 2 people that were fall down drunk, so the crowd was very well behaved and were very into the mood. It was a total blast.
I did learn something on my trip to NYC. If you are staying over a friends house with your partner ( I hate the phrase significant other ARGGHHH!), you best remember to lock the doors when you are "sleeping" lol. My dorky friends barged in on us and snapped some quick pictures. It was fun though and they were just being asses, so all is cool. I will share 2 shots with you.
Okay, enough of the gay junk already from me. I hope everyone is doing great and getting in the mood for Thanksgiving. It's a big family day in my house and Kelli will be meeting all of my relatives. I bet this makes her so nervous, lol. She already knows my mom and dad, so that's cool. She has never met some of my aunts, uncles, and cousins so that should be interesting.
I know I have been delinquent in replying to emails, but I promise I will get on top of that shortly. So please don't think I am being a dick or ignoring you. Sorry.
Okay, you guys have had a month off from my ridiculous attempts with the pen. Well I am back and here are a couple more for you perusal.
Bitch
My lovely daughter,
There will be times you will have to find it within yourself
extracting beneath the shyness and fear
the bitch... and I am not talking the diva type
or what we try to excuse as bad behavior
but the Bitch within,
all women come equipped with
to stand up for ourselves when people have abused our tolerance
or crossed a boundary too many times
It is about standing up for yourself and being heard regardless of the outcome
and not backing down from those who want to sweep your words under a rug,
your important concerns into the closet
The bitch within is about standing up and saying
'ENOUGH!
And I will be a bitch about it
because one is dismissive about it
or careless about it'
we all know the type that pretends to listen and care
only to wash their hands of it all behind your back
You know girl, as your mom I want the best for you
I see how confusing it is growing up
there will be so much to question
and you can be shy, insecure, like me I suppose at times
But you will like growing up, you will like finding your own voice
You will appreciate learning that we are all equals
despite what advertising or the worlds says
You will like how it feels when you stand up for something
that matters deeply to you
And you will like that strength within
called the 'bitch' when standing up for yourself
believe me, the time will come again and again
to use it well.
Don't take it personal that you will be tested on it
it is just the way things happen to fall sometimes.
Some call it assertiveness
but to be sure, some will call you a bitch for it.
I Love you always!
Mom
~ Its About Being Honest with Yourself ~
They sit there and cast a judgment
They tell me how it should have been and all the wrong that I have done.
They say it comes as no surprise that I have broken her heart.
But what else is there to do when us, as two individuals are so far apart?
You all thought I was no good for her to begin with
So why does me parting come as such a surprise?
In the 2 years we shared, she claimed a huge piece of my heart
And I am sure I will never learn to love anyone the way I love her.
But the distance grows in hearts as well as within miles.
Dreams somehow become unseen
Unreachable.
And the loneliness becomes too much to bare.
When you roll over in a cold bed and no one is there
Nothing but a ringtone in your ear.
Anyone who has stood in my shoes would understand.
It was never easy
And even with the difficulties, I never lost hope that one day shed be here with me.
Then the days added up, and grew my heart heavy
Darkened my nights more with every morning I woke alone.
No words could describe that pain, nor that hole I could not fill.
So run to her, pat her on the back and tell her shell be fine without me
But until you have stood where I have stood, you are no one to judge.
I know it has been a while since my last posting. I took 2 short mini vacations so I wasn't on the computer as much as I am used to. We went to Maine for Columbus Day and had a wonderful time. The weather was a bit brisk, but beautiful. We had a blast! I ate enough lobster and oysters to last me for quite sometime!
On Halloween I made my annual trip to NYC for the parade. It was incredible as usual. We did get drenched when it decided to rain, but the temperature was warm enough so we made it through. The crowd was incredible this year. Since it was a Saturday there were tons of people there. And we only spotted like 2 people that were fall down drunk, so the crowd was very well behaved and were very into the mood. It was a total blast.
I did learn something on my trip to NYC. If you are staying over a friends house with your partner ( I hate the phrase significant other ARGGHHH!), you best remember to lock the doors when you are "sleeping" lol. My dorky friends barged in on us and snapped some quick pictures. It was fun though and they were just being asses, so all is cool. I will share 2 shots with you.
Okay, enough of the gay junk already from me. I hope everyone is doing great and getting in the mood for Thanksgiving. It's a big family day in my house and Kelli will be meeting all of my relatives. I bet this makes her so nervous, lol. She already knows my mom and dad, so that's cool. She has never met some of my aunts, uncles, and cousins so that should be interesting.
I know I have been delinquent in replying to emails, but I promise I will get on top of that shortly. So please don't think I am being a dick or ignoring you. Sorry.
Okay, you guys have had a month off from my ridiculous attempts with the pen. Well I am back and here are a couple more for you perusal.
Bitch
My lovely daughter,
There will be times you will have to find it within yourself
extracting beneath the shyness and fear
the bitch... and I am not talking the diva type
or what we try to excuse as bad behavior
but the Bitch within,
all women come equipped with
to stand up for ourselves when people have abused our tolerance
or crossed a boundary too many times
It is about standing up for yourself and being heard regardless of the outcome
and not backing down from those who want to sweep your words under a rug,
your important concerns into the closet
The bitch within is about standing up and saying
'ENOUGH!
And I will be a bitch about it
because one is dismissive about it
or careless about it'
we all know the type that pretends to listen and care
only to wash their hands of it all behind your back
You know girl, as your mom I want the best for you
I see how confusing it is growing up
there will be so much to question
and you can be shy, insecure, like me I suppose at times
But you will like growing up, you will like finding your own voice
You will appreciate learning that we are all equals
despite what advertising or the worlds says
You will like how it feels when you stand up for something
that matters deeply to you
And you will like that strength within
called the 'bitch' when standing up for yourself
believe me, the time will come again and again
to use it well.
Don't take it personal that you will be tested on it
it is just the way things happen to fall sometimes.
Some call it assertiveness
but to be sure, some will call you a bitch for it.
I Love you always!
Mom
~ Its About Being Honest with Yourself ~
They sit there and cast a judgment
They tell me how it should have been and all the wrong that I have done.
They say it comes as no surprise that I have broken her heart.
But what else is there to do when us, as two individuals are so far apart?
You all thought I was no good for her to begin with
So why does me parting come as such a surprise?
In the 2 years we shared, she claimed a huge piece of my heart
And I am sure I will never learn to love anyone the way I love her.
But the distance grows in hearts as well as within miles.
Dreams somehow become unseen
Unreachable.
And the loneliness becomes too much to bare.
When you roll over in a cold bed and no one is there
Nothing but a ringtone in your ear.
Anyone who has stood in my shoes would understand.
It was never easy
And even with the difficulties, I never lost hope that one day shed be here with me.
Then the days added up, and grew my heart heavy
Darkened my nights more with every morning I woke alone.
No words could describe that pain, nor that hole I could not fill.
So run to her, pat her on the back and tell her shell be fine without me
But until you have stood where I have stood, you are no one to judge.
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naty:
WOW!
heymnky:
I've been a fan of your photographic sets (Kelli's too). Never expected to find you at SG. I'm looking forward to your blog.