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Hey all,
What a week it has been! I know, I am a day or two early in my writing, but who knows? I may have another blog in me before the weekend is out. I kind of knew it was going to be a week that would be memorable. It all started on Monday morning. I got word that the religious organization I had interviewed with had decided to rescind their offer letter to me because they found someone else that better fit their requirements. I was okay with that, I had expected it. Then my boss calls me into his office and closes the door!!! I knew what was coming next! He explained that with the downturn in the economy the company was looking to cut costs in hope of staying in business. He didn't want to do it, but he had no choice - I was gone!!! I think I started crying, I really can't remember too well. All I remember is that I wanted to get out of there that second! I hate when people see me cry anyways.
The next thing that happened just blew me away!!! I went home and just stared at the 4 walls when my phone rang. It was a school I had interviewed with a few times. They wanted me to come in that afternoon for a final discussion and make me an offer!!! I had a wonderful talk with my new boss! And during our discussion I found out that my old boss had given me an incredible endorsement. So, apparently, he knew before I did that I had a new job! And the bastard never said a word to me about it!!! He did call me on Tuesday just to make sure I got the job. So this Monday it will be official, I will be a geek and get paid for being one. I will be a system administrator! Sweet!
I had a lot of time on my hands this week, so I cleaned a lot, and shoveled. Yes, we had another snow storm. But that was cool. I didn't have to drive through it. Kelli was amazing, she kept me company all week. She worries about me sometimes I guess. Actually, after getting the job I was fine. I wasn't depressed anymore. But I loved having Kelli here keeping me company. We had a blast. I am waiting for her to get home from work now so I can make us dinner. We might go to the movies, not sure. I really want to go see The Wrestler, that looks really good. I'll let you know if I do.
Well, as I said, I had some time on my hands this week, so I looked through some of my old writings and found 2 that I hope you like. They kind of reflect my moods this week. Yes. that is moods (with the s), it has been a week here. lol. Anyways, I hope you like my choices for this weeks postings. Oh, before I forget, I did post some more pictures this week. Go check them out if you'd like.

Some People Are Cruel

It hurts when I look in your eyes and you dont see me standing in front of you.
Or when I speak and you never hear me.
I try to protect you from the world and the cruelty that surrounds you.
But at the same time, I cant keep hitting heads with you.
With your gentle heart and your naive nature, you turn a blind eye to reality,
Unable to see the damage being done around you.
You get your back up against me like I am the one attacking you.
When its behind your back that you need to watch.
There may come times, you dont like nor want to hear what I have to say.
But I am brutally honest and I dont say it to hurt you.
Ill hold you at fault for your mistakes.
Ill make you face the consequences of your actions.
But I still wont let anyone hurt you.
When you hear the anger in my voice, its cuz I am tired of fighting you.
When you walk away, I see the tears in your eyes
I feel your heart reach for mine, cuz you know what I say it true.
This girl has been burnt, beaten and scared.
Ive seen it all and I know how the game works.
It tears me apart inside to see what they do to you.
Especially when I speak, and I question why youre so defensive with me.
I am not the enemy.
Long ago, I would have walked away and let you fight your own battle.
But for some reason, I am always standing guard for you.
And it breaks my heart when you fail to see that.
Ill take the bullets for you as long as you dont let them kill who you are.
So remember these four words when I cant be around to save you

SOME PEOPLE ARE CRUEL!!

walk duh path

sure, Ill walk wid ya,
but ygotta walk duh path
Ill stay by yer side,
But ygotta walk duh path
ders a fierce world out der
winds whip dem trees into kindlin
storms black out duh whole block
rains turn dem streets tah' rivahs.
girl, you gotta face it.
from birth on up, you hear dem voices:
pretty girls dont tangle der hair
pretty girls stay dry
but girl, if you just watch life like some show on TV
lettin dat plot line flow by
if you dont live every moment,
how will ya know if youre really alive?
how will ya know you cant evuh fly?
(we still havent proven eternity,
though some of us die tryin.)
duh competitions vicious out der.
good girls are thin and pretty
go to church on Sundays
are courted by the handsome gents
heads of choirs and 4H clubs
lips sealed and approved,
theyre everyones favorite
organic, wholesome goodness, wrapped and tied wid a bow.
here, have dis, dey tell us
widout evuh first tryin our own.
I may not be certified or ratified or fit for wholesale
but if goods duh ultimate goal
Im gonna find me a better game.
cause wuts good for dem
and wuts good for me
dat just simply aint duh same.
I will fight duh wind
I will dance in dat rain
my hair, wet and tangled
my clothes stickin to duh skin
my bare feet in duh biggest puddle you evuh did see
and Im laughin,
laughin for duh world to see
cause I know duh secret
dey aint evuh gonna get me.
girl, when duh goin gets tough
my shoulder waits fer ya
well lament and complain
curse dem all out
and den brush ourselves off,
get right back up again
cause girl, ygotta walk dat path
ygotta plant yer roots deep
when ya move, duh earth will follow
sistahs will cheer ya on
put one foot in front of duh other, in front of
duh other
girl, no matter wut dey say about duh good life
you will walk dis path
wid honor and grace
wid strength and defiance
wid courage and vision of dem worlds beyond
girl you will walk dis path, if its duh last thing yah do.
aint nobody,
aint nobody in dis whole world
gonna do it
fer ya.