Hey All!!
I hope everyone has had a great couple of weeks. I was missing in action last weekend. I had a tough couple of weeks, I felt that everything I was doing was wrong - or so it seemed. I think I have turned the corner though. I finally had some good news come my way after a bit of a losing streak. I did get another certification. I passed my Security + exam, so now I have another bullet for my resume. Now it's on to the next 4 for my MCSE. I hope to have that all accomplished by mid-October.
I do want to say congratulations to Jamila for going pink last weekend. Your set was beautiful! as always!!! And I also want to wish Viking good luck too! I saw your set in member review and I love it!!! The minute I saw it I giggled and thought 'titties and pussy!!" LOL Sorry, inside joke there.
I did see a couple of concerts since I last posted. The Cowboy Junkies were awesome, although the weather was not as cooperative as I would have hoped. We had thunderstorms off and on all day so I just kept hoping t would stay clear while they played, and it did! Aimee Mann was great too, but a little darker and mellower than usual, although it did match my mood for the last couple of weeks. It was very enjoyable. Plus she is such a cutie!
Well, since I missed last week I figured I would post 2 poems today. One is a short one, I will post that first. The second is a bit longer, but if you read both of them I think you will have an idea about my last 2 weeks.
I hope everyone is doing great! And I will try to write more during the week, I have a little extra time on my hands this week.
A storm is rolling in
A storm is rolling in
I watch the clouds form and smell the rain
Winds of change settling on the horizon
Anxiety peeking
I hear the thunder shaking the heavens
The lightning stretching like veins on a dark canvas
I feel it in my soul
The aching high pitch whine of the wind
I wish to curl up
To hide
Listen to the rain as it beats down on the window pane
Instead I melt into tornadic thoughts
Swirling...changing direction...drifting
Plummeting me back to the ground
Spinning me round and round
I wish to sleep to the melody of rain drops
Yet I feel the darkness of the clouds blanketing the sky...
Will You Remember Me?
If a day ever came where you no longer saw my face, would you remember me?
Would all of my honesty and hard work have paid off?
Would it be worth something to you?
My life is obsolete and the one thing that kept me going has let me down.
I shut up and lay my vulnerable side before you
You have the power over me.
Please ridicule me for all that I am not, and dismiss all that I thought I was.
Friends with removable masks, people I don't even know anymore
They carry a smile on their face and daggers in their words.
A false perception of reality.
They greet me when I enter a room and throw weapons when I am defenseless.
I was living in a make believe world, where I thought respect was given in return
I was silly to think this could have been my second home, my safe haven.
Here was all I knew.
One day I was so sure of myself, I had finally taken control of my run away life
Sometimes I think it's derailed so far off track.
Turn away when these tears fall and make me the one at fault
Taking the blame for you is what I do best.
The submissive personality takes a lot before they blow
The submissive personality gives you everything with nothing in return.
THIS submissive personality feels taken for granted.
Now she is nowhere to be found
Will you remember her?
I hope everyone has had a great couple of weeks. I was missing in action last weekend. I had a tough couple of weeks, I felt that everything I was doing was wrong - or so it seemed. I think I have turned the corner though. I finally had some good news come my way after a bit of a losing streak. I did get another certification. I passed my Security + exam, so now I have another bullet for my resume. Now it's on to the next 4 for my MCSE. I hope to have that all accomplished by mid-October.
I do want to say congratulations to Jamila for going pink last weekend. Your set was beautiful! as always!!! And I also want to wish Viking good luck too! I saw your set in member review and I love it!!! The minute I saw it I giggled and thought 'titties and pussy!!" LOL Sorry, inside joke there.
I did see a couple of concerts since I last posted. The Cowboy Junkies were awesome, although the weather was not as cooperative as I would have hoped. We had thunderstorms off and on all day so I just kept hoping t would stay clear while they played, and it did! Aimee Mann was great too, but a little darker and mellower than usual, although it did match my mood for the last couple of weeks. It was very enjoyable. Plus she is such a cutie!
Well, since I missed last week I figured I would post 2 poems today. One is a short one, I will post that first. The second is a bit longer, but if you read both of them I think you will have an idea about my last 2 weeks.
I hope everyone is doing great! And I will try to write more during the week, I have a little extra time on my hands this week.
A storm is rolling in
A storm is rolling in
I watch the clouds form and smell the rain
Winds of change settling on the horizon
Anxiety peeking
I hear the thunder shaking the heavens
The lightning stretching like veins on a dark canvas
I feel it in my soul
The aching high pitch whine of the wind
I wish to curl up
To hide
Listen to the rain as it beats down on the window pane
Instead I melt into tornadic thoughts
Swirling...changing direction...drifting
Plummeting me back to the ground
Spinning me round and round
I wish to sleep to the melody of rain drops
Yet I feel the darkness of the clouds blanketing the sky...
Will You Remember Me?
If a day ever came where you no longer saw my face, would you remember me?
Would all of my honesty and hard work have paid off?
Would it be worth something to you?
My life is obsolete and the one thing that kept me going has let me down.
I shut up and lay my vulnerable side before you
You have the power over me.
Please ridicule me for all that I am not, and dismiss all that I thought I was.
Friends with removable masks, people I don't even know anymore
They carry a smile on their face and daggers in their words.
A false perception of reality.
They greet me when I enter a room and throw weapons when I am defenseless.
I was living in a make believe world, where I thought respect was given in return
I was silly to think this could have been my second home, my safe haven.
Here was all I knew.
One day I was so sure of myself, I had finally taken control of my run away life
Sometimes I think it's derailed so far off track.
Turn away when these tears fall and make me the one at fault
Taking the blame for you is what I do best.
The submissive personality takes a lot before they blow
The submissive personality gives you everything with nothing in return.
THIS submissive personality feels taken for granted.
Now she is nowhere to be found
Will you remember her?
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