Not much has been going on this last week, hence the lack of update. Well, that and apathy.
I've been changing my medication, weaning off what I'm currently on (avanza) with the intention of getting onto something that might actually work (maybe zoloft or aropax. At least I think that's what my psych said). Strangely, other than a couple of really bad days of utter sadness and not being able to cope with anything, a little bit of cutting myself, some panic attacks, having a fight with my best friend... well, okay, some bad stuff, but strangely, what I'm trying to say is it hasn't been as bad as I'd expected. Not saying it's been any kinda fun, but not at tragic as I was maybe expecting/worried about. I'm almost completely off my old meds now, and I don't really feel any worse. I didn't really get any withdrawal side effects (brief spells of dizziness were apparently the worst that I would get, and I didn't really get any of those), my mood didn't plummet dramatically, nothing really changed. So I really don't think those meds were working for me at all anyway. I guess that sometimes happens. Hopefully whatever I get onto next will help, I really could do with feeling better.
Anyway.
Almost completely settled into my new house now, and feeling okay about how I got my room set up. I like all my housemates, I like their dog, so things are pretty good there.
My best friend flies off to Macau tomorrow night, where she'll be for 2 years, so that's going to be pretty hard to see her go. I know I'm going to be sooking like a baby at the airport. Really gonna miss her a lot.
Also been reading Dostoevsky's 'crime and punishment' and am really enjoying it. Such a good book. Unlike anything I've read before. Except maybe Kafka (when I went through my not being able to eat days, many years ago now, I so completely got 'the fasting artist' like no othe story i'd ever read. Go read it. It's amazing). Okay, talking crap now, must be the tranqs. Just really digging this book is all. Really making me think.
Got 'mass effect' for my xbox360, so i'ma be geekin' it up tonight.
I think I'm done. Wow, what a boring blog. Sorry.
I've been changing my medication, weaning off what I'm currently on (avanza) with the intention of getting onto something that might actually work (maybe zoloft or aropax. At least I think that's what my psych said). Strangely, other than a couple of really bad days of utter sadness and not being able to cope with anything, a little bit of cutting myself, some panic attacks, having a fight with my best friend... well, okay, some bad stuff, but strangely, what I'm trying to say is it hasn't been as bad as I'd expected. Not saying it's been any kinda fun, but not at tragic as I was maybe expecting/worried about. I'm almost completely off my old meds now, and I don't really feel any worse. I didn't really get any withdrawal side effects (brief spells of dizziness were apparently the worst that I would get, and I didn't really get any of those), my mood didn't plummet dramatically, nothing really changed. So I really don't think those meds were working for me at all anyway. I guess that sometimes happens. Hopefully whatever I get onto next will help, I really could do with feeling better.
Anyway.
Almost completely settled into my new house now, and feeling okay about how I got my room set up. I like all my housemates, I like their dog, so things are pretty good there.
My best friend flies off to Macau tomorrow night, where she'll be for 2 years, so that's going to be pretty hard to see her go. I know I'm going to be sooking like a baby at the airport. Really gonna miss her a lot.
Also been reading Dostoevsky's 'crime and punishment' and am really enjoying it. Such a good book. Unlike anything I've read before. Except maybe Kafka (when I went through my not being able to eat days, many years ago now, I so completely got 'the fasting artist' like no othe story i'd ever read. Go read it. It's amazing). Okay, talking crap now, must be the tranqs. Just really digging this book is all. Really making me think.
Got 'mass effect' for my xbox360, so i'ma be geekin' it up tonight.
I think I'm done. Wow, what a boring blog. Sorry.
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snarky:
i hope that your weekend goes good, hun.
snarky:
I hope that things are going well, dear. I havent heard from you in several days :[