Hahahahahah...... yeah, I've been drinking.... just a little bit, but goth, I am such a lightweight anymore, two beers and one shot and I'm buzzing, really?!! WTF.. ug...normally, I am an amazingly fun little drunk, but I was a bit of a dick tonight... but it was still funny. Lol.
blah night at work, left early because bentely fell completely off stage, did a spin, went to grab the pole, miscalculated, missed the pole, and off she went, and since she and i carpool, we got to leave early, she's fine, she'll have a few bruises tomorrow... and a damaged ego, but that's it.... oh, and then the boss man said she and i aren't cut out for this kind of work... meaning stripping...... it's just not ''us'', as he said... and although he's right... it still stings, even though I know he's right... I suck at this job, I hate it.. i'm good at stage, but i suck at hustling, i hate people, i hate talking to people anymore, i hate when people try to touch me, in general, i cringe and i get annoyed and pissed off.... but still, i fake personable well, even though i wish i more than anything that i was home with my dog, doodling, drinking coffee, and watching movies.
fuck it, blah. it's a job, i pay my bills, no one else, i don't do drugs, i generally try to be a good person, but i fail at everything it seems, i fail at selecting decent males to be in relationships with, i fail at acheiving my goals, and now, even though i am not appealing as a person in general, i fail at being a sex object.... jesus, i just can't win. Again i do well on stage usually, even though i hate it, but for fucks sake!!!!
tonight, i peed on a bar sidewalk, not because i was drunk, like i said, i got a buzz, but i felt like being a dick, and the bar owner fucked my friend over because he was pissed she made a LOT of honest money... she knew everyone that came into that bar, of course they're going to tip her well, so i pissed on his sidewalk, just because i could... and then he came outside, right after i pulled up my ''call of duty'' pj pants, i looked him in the face, pointed to my puddle, and said ''oh, yeah, i just marked my territory, hope you don't mind'', and had a super bitch smug expression on my face as i stared him down... he just looked and said ''ok'', and went back inside... yeah, that's right, fuck you.
I'm a pretty passive person, but i get in my moods, where i just don't give a fuck... and if the worst i do is pee on a side walk, then whatever. shrug. fuck people, i'm not getting into fights, i'm nto starting shit, i'm peeing on pavement, fuck off. i think i've been around dogs too much, and haven't had enough people interaction over the past few years. eye roll.
so that's that, work tomorrow night, then new puppy saturday. yay. finally. Now it's time to sleep.
good night, all.
blah night at work, left early because bentely fell completely off stage, did a spin, went to grab the pole, miscalculated, missed the pole, and off she went, and since she and i carpool, we got to leave early, she's fine, she'll have a few bruises tomorrow... and a damaged ego, but that's it.... oh, and then the boss man said she and i aren't cut out for this kind of work... meaning stripping...... it's just not ''us'', as he said... and although he's right... it still stings, even though I know he's right... I suck at this job, I hate it.. i'm good at stage, but i suck at hustling, i hate people, i hate talking to people anymore, i hate when people try to touch me, in general, i cringe and i get annoyed and pissed off.... but still, i fake personable well, even though i wish i more than anything that i was home with my dog, doodling, drinking coffee, and watching movies.
fuck it, blah. it's a job, i pay my bills, no one else, i don't do drugs, i generally try to be a good person, but i fail at everything it seems, i fail at selecting decent males to be in relationships with, i fail at acheiving my goals, and now, even though i am not appealing as a person in general, i fail at being a sex object.... jesus, i just can't win. Again i do well on stage usually, even though i hate it, but for fucks sake!!!!
tonight, i peed on a bar sidewalk, not because i was drunk, like i said, i got a buzz, but i felt like being a dick, and the bar owner fucked my friend over because he was pissed she made a LOT of honest money... she knew everyone that came into that bar, of course they're going to tip her well, so i pissed on his sidewalk, just because i could... and then he came outside, right after i pulled up my ''call of duty'' pj pants, i looked him in the face, pointed to my puddle, and said ''oh, yeah, i just marked my territory, hope you don't mind'', and had a super bitch smug expression on my face as i stared him down... he just looked and said ''ok'', and went back inside... yeah, that's right, fuck you.
I'm a pretty passive person, but i get in my moods, where i just don't give a fuck... and if the worst i do is pee on a side walk, then whatever. shrug. fuck people, i'm not getting into fights, i'm nto starting shit, i'm peeing on pavement, fuck off. i think i've been around dogs too much, and haven't had enough people interaction over the past few years. eye roll.
so that's that, work tomorrow night, then new puppy saturday. yay. finally. Now it's time to sleep.
good night, all.
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gears:
I peed on stuff when I'm not drinking, I'm just not as much of a big mouth about it. Lol.
bbecker83:
I peed on a police car in the middle of Carson st, i am sure gears knows where this is, best part the cop didn't see cause he was ticketing a drunk driver!