It's just one of THOSE days... nothing particularly wrong, just rather 'bleh'. Doctors appointment went well, I acquired my long missed Prozac, and a few Xanax for in case of emergencies... HELL FUCKING YES! I never wanted to take the Xanax before, but after the little ''episode'', as we'll call it from last week... that caused one of the worst anxiety attacks I've had, causing me to miss a day of work...fuck it. It's not worth it, if I have to take a potentially habit forming drug to make sure I can make it to work, I will. I can't miss work, first time in five months that I missed, and I was not happy. I run late here and there.. but only by two or three minutes due to road conditions or getting stuck behind a school bus. My boss is very understanding, but still, I had to miss work because I got pushed to an anxiety attack. Fuck that bullshit. SO, problem resolved. I took half of one on the drive back, thanks to certain circumstances....... I feel MUCH better. I'm not edgy, and a certain person doesn't seem to like my aloof behavior in regards to their pouting, but fuck it. I care, but not enough to be upset about something stupid that they did. Duh. If you don't like people making legitimate points about inappropriate behavior, then don't do inappropriate behavior. Taaaadaaaaaaa. Problem solved.
I drove for over an hour to go to the doctor that I've had all of my life. Which made things simpler for me, over all, the drive there and back was long, but the roads were clear, and I got to stop and see my parents for a little bit. However they loaded me up with boxes upon boxes of old stuff of mine that they kept. Like old toys and such, and some antique nick knacks from the early 1900's. They figured I could see it on ebay. Appreciated, but still, I stopped to visit, not load up my jeep with old musty boxes of stuff I have no place to store. Sigh, but shrug.
Housework needs done, I'm kind of tired of being the only one to do it 99% of the time... mainly I get annoyed because things are half assed when I don't do them. For instance, the coffee explosion from the beginning of the week that I asked the person that caused it to clean up... they did, kind of. I want to appreciate the effort, but it's kind of hard when it's still (in large quantities) on parts of the floor, and still on parts of the wall....I dunno, I guess it's just me, when I clean, I clean everything, not just parts of the mess. Sneer.
There's my venting. Sorry. MMMMMMMmmmmmmmmm coffee....... oh, my beloved comfort drink. mmmmmm, cigs....... my terrible habit... I'm going to quit, I've decided this, when, I'm not sure, but I did make the decision that I will. So, first step down. Wooo. Plus, I have to wait for a time to quit when it will be safe for the people around me. ROR!!
That's it for now, I guess.... word at work is there may be the possibility of getting laid off, worst case scenario.... greeeeaaaaaaaat. I have my dream job that's working towards my future career, and I may lose it, even if it is just temporary.... but still. Bummer. MIGHT go boarding, I doubt it, though. Sigh, again. Grocery shopping, then cleaning seems like a more 'responsible', 'adult' theme for the evening....insert angst here.
I drove for over an hour to go to the doctor that I've had all of my life. Which made things simpler for me, over all, the drive there and back was long, but the roads were clear, and I got to stop and see my parents for a little bit. However they loaded me up with boxes upon boxes of old stuff of mine that they kept. Like old toys and such, and some antique nick knacks from the early 1900's. They figured I could see it on ebay. Appreciated, but still, I stopped to visit, not load up my jeep with old musty boxes of stuff I have no place to store. Sigh, but shrug.
Housework needs done, I'm kind of tired of being the only one to do it 99% of the time... mainly I get annoyed because things are half assed when I don't do them. For instance, the coffee explosion from the beginning of the week that I asked the person that caused it to clean up... they did, kind of. I want to appreciate the effort, but it's kind of hard when it's still (in large quantities) on parts of the floor, and still on parts of the wall....I dunno, I guess it's just me, when I clean, I clean everything, not just parts of the mess. Sneer.
There's my venting. Sorry. MMMMMMMmmmmmmmmm coffee....... oh, my beloved comfort drink. mmmmmm, cigs....... my terrible habit... I'm going to quit, I've decided this, when, I'm not sure, but I did make the decision that I will. So, first step down. Wooo. Plus, I have to wait for a time to quit when it will be safe for the people around me. ROR!!
That's it for now, I guess.... word at work is there may be the possibility of getting laid off, worst case scenario.... greeeeaaaaaaaat. I have my dream job that's working towards my future career, and I may lose it, even if it is just temporary.... but still. Bummer. MIGHT go boarding, I doubt it, though. Sigh, again. Grocery shopping, then cleaning seems like a more 'responsible', 'adult' theme for the evening....insert angst here.
*throws feathers at you*