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I want to play with cobras. Big ones... like ten to fourteen feet. Yeah... Add that to my bucket list.

The past few weeks have been nothing but ups and downs with the farm boy, but now things seem to be okay again. Let's hope so. Just a few small misinterpretations of text messages, because you can't pick up tone, so things were just a little awkward. Joined a gym Saturday, orientation was supposed to be today, but I realized I had nothing to wear...
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Changes all around. Moved off the hill, closer to work. I indirectly quit dancing, I bartend full time at a lingerie bar now. On the hunt for a day still. Trying to organize the new place still. I won't find out until the end of May if I get accepted into the apprenticeship program for floor covering. Cut off Farmboy, I really have to focus...
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AWESOME NEW YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahah...... yeah, I've been drinking.... just a little bit, but goth, I am such a lightweight anymore, two beers and one shot and I'm buzzing, really?!! WTF.. ug...normally, I am an amazingly fun little drunk, but I was a bit of a dick tonight... but it was still funny. Lol.

blah night at work, left early because bentely fell completely off stage, did a spin,...
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Oh, and new puppy this week. I'm not into pot or anything, as you all should well know, but the movie ''Your Highness'', hilarious, and I'm naming him Thundarian. Lol. Thundarian Gabriel to be exact. He's going to be on the smaller side for my taste, but still a decent size, and I'll have my big, protective male again when he's older. His dad is...
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Such is my life...........


And I still TRY to stay up beat. My photoset didn't happen. Thank you photographer.... who is still blowing me off, not returning my phone calls, texts, emails, etc. Wasted money on props and such, etc. Like I said, it's been how long and he's STILL AVOIDING ME. Yeah, so much for that. Sad face.

I have not been on here...
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Today, I am determined, and slightly more optimistic. However, I'm sure that will get shot down by the end of the day, but right now, I'm rolling with it.

I'm going to try to get a job as a ''shot girl'' at a gay bar half an hour away. It's the closest one, and my hair color wouldn't be an issue. Here's hoping they're hiring!!...
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I seriously need a ''bang head here'' sign for every wall and surface in my house. I'll leave it at that for now.

Otherwise, long day at work today, for the first time in forever... twelve hours, and looking at a full 8 hours tomorrow. I got a few updated pictures.... mostly ''my stalker space'' angles.. but at least they're fresh. Nothing scandalous or nude....
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All cuddled up in a heated blanket. Nice and toasty! Woohooo! It was negative ten degrees this morning when I departed for work. It warmed up to 14 today... time to bust out the swim suit. I did decide to streak to my suv last night, no clothes, no shoes... I forgot my french fries in the cup holder. Worth it!!! My feet were freezing...
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I realized today that I have spent the majority of my time the past few weeks daydreaming. I don't really think I've done this since I was a kid. I kind of enjoy it, and on the other hand, it's a little depressing. I daydream about material things mostly, or getting another dog, even though the one I currently have is driving me nuts!!

Very...
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