Its crazy sometimes how a song can bring back a lot of stuff.
When I went to Jr High School, I took the bus. I was never one of those people that was worried about where I sat on the bus and if I was cool or not. I always had my walkman on and was in my own world anyways. So, I would just pick a seat and sit there and listen to music and wait to get dropped in front of the school. Not much as far as shenanigans for me. (hey Farva!) Anyways, about mid way through the first year, there was a girl that transfered to my school. She was a year ahead of me. She was beautiful. 5'7" blonde hair, blue eyes, runners body and pure attitude. You didnt give this girl lip, she was fierce and didnt hesitate to fight back. She was awesome.
I would get picked up before her in the mornings and one morning, for whatever reason, she sat with me. I didnt mind and I wasnt bashful about it. She had on her walkman too. So we just sat there and listened to our respective music. I can still remember the way she smelled. Nothing spectacular. Just freshly showered and clean. Not tons of perfume but something, probably a lotion of some sort, that drove me nuts. She sat with me every morning for the rest of the year. I didnt mind. One morning she unplugged both of our headphones and switched them. That was the song she was listening to. I was listening to Led Zepplin. From then on, we would talk every now about piddly shit and the assholes around us but for the most part we would just listen to our music and sometimes share. She went and bought a dual jack so we could both plug in to the same player if we wanted. It was cool. She was cool. I really liked that girl.
Once wrestling season was over, I started taking the bus home after shcool too. It was pretty much the same. Except she was a lot more energetic and more talkative. I was happy to talk to her. We never had any serious conversations. Just mundane day to day stuff. Then one day, I watched out the window as she got off the bus and ran into her boyfriends arms and kissed him. I was heartbroken. He just looked like trouble. I didnt like him. We were getting close to the end of the school year by then and she moved on to High School. I only saw her briefly in the halls when I got to High School and we would say hi to eachother and smile but that was about it. I thought about her when Shannon Hoon died of his cocaine overdose and wondered how she was. I hate seeing talented people throw their lives away to drugs. Its upsetting.
I came home on leave from the Marines one time and she was bartending at the bar I had gone to with some friends. She wasnt doing very well. Physically I mean. My friends knew her, three of them felt like telling me how well the knew her and I got pissed and said they shouldnt talk about her like that. I got upset but I didnt go talk to her. She was busy and I didnt want to bother her. When I finally got out of the Marines I randomly ran into her little sister at a house party I was at and she told me she had been in and out of rehab and finally moved to Missouri but they hadnt heard from her in over a year and a half. That was 3 years ago itself. I wonder how she is. I thought about her a lot today. Her name was Cherise
Ah well, thats my mindless meanderings for ya. Heres another song with Shannon Hoon.
Goddamn I used to rock out to those guys all the fucking time!
Totally unrelated.
This is my favorite James Brown song. I cant believe they have this on YouTube!
Im working really hard on forgiving people right now. Its hard. I dont know if its just me or what. I think of people and I know I dont want to hold any type of grudge against them and then theres this rush of everything theyve said and done against me and Im like, "FUCK!" And its not that I cant, I just dont know if I want to just yet. But, like I said, Im trying, and Im trying not to hold any type of negative emotion in me. Rather replace it with positive. Its hard though man. Its hard. Ya know like when you left the dog shit in the backyard for a couple months and when you go to pick it up its hard. Its like that. hehehe
Namaste.
When I went to Jr High School, I took the bus. I was never one of those people that was worried about where I sat on the bus and if I was cool or not. I always had my walkman on and was in my own world anyways. So, I would just pick a seat and sit there and listen to music and wait to get dropped in front of the school. Not much as far as shenanigans for me. (hey Farva!) Anyways, about mid way through the first year, there was a girl that transfered to my school. She was a year ahead of me. She was beautiful. 5'7" blonde hair, blue eyes, runners body and pure attitude. You didnt give this girl lip, she was fierce and didnt hesitate to fight back. She was awesome.
I would get picked up before her in the mornings and one morning, for whatever reason, she sat with me. I didnt mind and I wasnt bashful about it. She had on her walkman too. So we just sat there and listened to our respective music. I can still remember the way she smelled. Nothing spectacular. Just freshly showered and clean. Not tons of perfume but something, probably a lotion of some sort, that drove me nuts. She sat with me every morning for the rest of the year. I didnt mind. One morning she unplugged both of our headphones and switched them. That was the song she was listening to. I was listening to Led Zepplin. From then on, we would talk every now about piddly shit and the assholes around us but for the most part we would just listen to our music and sometimes share. She went and bought a dual jack so we could both plug in to the same player if we wanted. It was cool. She was cool. I really liked that girl.
Once wrestling season was over, I started taking the bus home after shcool too. It was pretty much the same. Except she was a lot more energetic and more talkative. I was happy to talk to her. We never had any serious conversations. Just mundane day to day stuff. Then one day, I watched out the window as she got off the bus and ran into her boyfriends arms and kissed him. I was heartbroken. He just looked like trouble. I didnt like him. We were getting close to the end of the school year by then and she moved on to High School. I only saw her briefly in the halls when I got to High School and we would say hi to eachother and smile but that was about it. I thought about her when Shannon Hoon died of his cocaine overdose and wondered how she was. I hate seeing talented people throw their lives away to drugs. Its upsetting.
I came home on leave from the Marines one time and she was bartending at the bar I had gone to with some friends. She wasnt doing very well. Physically I mean. My friends knew her, three of them felt like telling me how well the knew her and I got pissed and said they shouldnt talk about her like that. I got upset but I didnt go talk to her. She was busy and I didnt want to bother her. When I finally got out of the Marines I randomly ran into her little sister at a house party I was at and she told me she had been in and out of rehab and finally moved to Missouri but they hadnt heard from her in over a year and a half. That was 3 years ago itself. I wonder how she is. I thought about her a lot today. Her name was Cherise
Ah well, thats my mindless meanderings for ya. Heres another song with Shannon Hoon.
Goddamn I used to rock out to those guys all the fucking time!
Totally unrelated.
This is my favorite James Brown song. I cant believe they have this on YouTube!
Im working really hard on forgiving people right now. Its hard. I dont know if its just me or what. I think of people and I know I dont want to hold any type of grudge against them and then theres this rush of everything theyve said and done against me and Im like, "FUCK!" And its not that I cant, I just dont know if I want to just yet. But, like I said, Im trying, and Im trying not to hold any type of negative emotion in me. Rather replace it with positive. Its hard though man. Its hard. Ya know like when you left the dog shit in the backyard for a couple months and when you go to pick it up its hard. Its like that. hehehe
Namaste.
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its not the song i wanted but deal with it!