gbay

Today was officially the fifth time I have had to leave my wife at the airport, not being able to see her again for about 6-7 months. I know a lot of people have to spend many more months apart from their spouse and I feel for them. So far in my relationship we have spent more time apart than together its hard. Its really starting to take a toll on me. How do people live like this. Every second I am away from her I feel like I just want to die. I feel so empty so lost. I finally find a person who truly loves me unconditionally, would literally follow me to the end of the Earth and hold my hand when we jump, and all I have done is send her home every time we get a chance to live together, because the Army decides they have different plans for me. I am so tired of not having control of where I go and what I do, but alas I have no power to change this shit. 7 months and I will be done with the Army, hopefully there will be a shred of the person I once was left by the time this is over.

Sincerely,
HeBay