gasolineperfect

i am sad.

i have no house, no home. and i have a completely seperate life from twin that she knows nothing about.

although, in actual fact i've not been as a happy as this for a VERY long time (as in years) it still feels fucking horrible not having her here. my friends don't even know who she is

and even though i'm making new memories with new friends, there's still that part of me inside that just literally aches for rock bottom so much.

we've now officially lived away from it longer than we lived in it.

i miss ritchie, and i miss mattmatt. and i miss that boy who loved me...even though he's gone now...