garbage19

"Things fall apart"


So i try to make it a point to enjoy life daily and never let myself get too down. ive been through too much shit to let most normal daily problems affect me much, but today i got an eviction notice from my rental company, ive sent the last two months rent checks in on time and yet still i get this bullshit. under normal circumstances id say, "fuck it, ill get everything squared away tomorrow and then itll be over" but for some reason, i have a feeling that this is gonna be a rough time for me. besides them being the worst company ever to deal with, they just seem to have a bunch of evil and spiteful people working there. u know in the end everything will work out like its supposed to, but fuck man, that eviction notice is one of the worst things ive ever opened in my life. without sounding like a judgemental prick, opening that letter made me feel like a broke, worthless piece of shit. it made me feel like people i probably look down on. but i guess these are those things that people talk about that make u motivate and do something positive or let it fucking drag u down. so this weekend im going to probably get really fucking drunk and try and forget about it for at least a weekend and that get my head on straight in time for the week ahead. so if anyone wants to hang out with a depressed, bitter, drunk fuck this weekend let me know, ill probably still be more fun to hang out with then whoever you have current plans with.