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Friday Aug 03, 2007

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Despite having many wonderful things going on in my life, I'm sad tonight. I'll do this in list format.

Wonderful

Primary is amazing. Despite my best attempts to convince him to run very fast and very far away, he sticks around, even promising me the same promise RS made. He loves that I motivate him. I love that I get to embrace my inner bossiness and tell him what to do just to get some of his projects done.

The Cow-orker (as Mr. Ivarr is fond of saying) who would make my job a little more difficult has put in her two-weeks notice. She's a nice lady, do not get me wrong, but a) her whininess (yes I'm whiney but this woman puts me to shame!) and b) her lack of willingness to learn the most basic of design things just irritates the crap out of me. Not to mention she's totally a magazine girl and really her contempt for newspapers shows all the time.

We've hired a new girl, another hybrid-type position. She's picking things up rather quickly. It makes my job so much easier!

I'm getting over time pay.

Sadness

My supervisor had the new girl design the entire paper, except the front and jump page. I usually do that. I'm sure he's just trying to give her experience but I feel a little hurt, like he took it from me as a punishment. She'll eventually get my schedule so it makes sense that she'll be designing the daily. I think they'll put me back into copy editing and some design. On the plus side I'll get Fridays and Saturdays off eventually.

Speaking of the change in schedule with the Cow-orker quitting, I think I may have to stay on the Tues-Sat schedule until she's replaced. Kinda crappy but oh well.

New girl smells like RS. I had never smelled that before I met him. Tonight I was standing behind her to show how to do stuff and noticed it. It took all I had not to curl up in a ball under my desk and weep. I thought I was moving on, apparently not.
I've been missing his cat really badly for a week or so. Primary's cat is cute and all but she's just not Miss Chutney Anne who used to sleep on me at night and cuddle me during the day. Plus she'd chase the laser pointer.

The projects with the Primary make me miss RS as well. See, I always thought I'd be helping RS buy a condo and then helping him decorate it and maybe even moving it further down the line. I guess that's not to be the case.

While showing the Cow-orker and New Girl pictures of the Primary, I also had a picture of RS. They both agreed RS is just so nice and sweet looking. They said they also saw a difference in my face with him. Like I was content with him.

Bottom line: I just miss RS. I haven't talked to him in a month and a half. He promised me he'd contact me when he had time for coffee. Guess he's busy with a new gf eh?
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baudot:
Aye, The Man burns the Saturday before Labor Day.
Aug 7, 2007
fr3ak:
I try not to dwell on the fact of feeling like I've done nothing with my life. Knowing full well there are a lot of things I can be proud of. Sometimes its just hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. (that wasn't corny at all)

I agree with your comments to companionship. As much as I would like to just be independent enough to be happy by myself I miss having someone.

It was good seeing you at brunch by the way. smile
Aug 8, 2007

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