There's a pretty good chance I'll get fired from the restaurant tomorrow.

See, apparently going to visit family for the holidays and attending a wedding in Hawaii aren't good enough excuses.

I had most of the shifts covered, but then we fired the stupid bitch and suddenly I have to get them all covered again. I'm missing five shifts. We are so short staffed there's literally no one to cover my shit. It seriously pisses me off. I have nine permanent shifts, when the average was supposedly four to six. I did some counting and guess what we're all up to six to nine a piece. So for not wanting a bunch of full-time people we sure do have a lot.

It's funny that we have movies like "Click" in our culture, saying we should put family first and not worry about work so much. How is this even possible in our society? If you don't work you get fired. If you aren't willing to kiss your uppers' asses, you're out.

I place my family above everything. Hell, I hate going home for the holidays, but I know it makes them happy so I do it. Now I'm being punished for spending time with them. I'm the only one who works there whose family isn't local. Everyone else either still lives at home or close to, with the exception of one guy who is from Salt Lake, but he doesn't get along with his family. This happened last year too. I caught shit for going home Dec. 23 instead of going to work. This year I'm even cutting my time with my family short. I'm leaving Christmas Eve and was planning on coming back Dec. 27 or 28, but as I don't have my night shift for Dec. 26 covered, I wonder if I will cut it short. But then again if I'm fired who fucking cares.

I'm already stressing about money just thinking about not having this job. I don't have anyone to fall back on. I live on my own. I'm going to see if I can start working full-time at the Tribune to help with the bills. I spent $200 fixing my car today, but it had to be done. I've spent money on Christmas presents. I'll need to spend a lot in Hawaii.

I love that the assistant manager told me, "Well that's why we don't like servers taking time off around the holidays." No one fucking told me that. No one. When I told them three months ago that I was leaving for two weeks, they didn't say, "Oh hey that's the holidays. It's not a good idea." The AM was excited and happy for me.

I busted my ass (and literally my back) for them. When ever someone was sick or they needed someone to cover a shift last minute, I was there. When people needed time off for birthdays, or Labor Day or time to study for finals, I was there to help out. Now no one is helping me. I realize they want to be with their families too but shit they live with their families.

And with having nine permanent shifts, I didn't even want some of them. I was told Saturday mornings would be temporary. That was back in July! I got Tuesday nights temporarily for a girl who had class. I finally got rid of them then the stupid bitch got fired and I got 'em back "temporarily." I didn't work at the paper this last Tuesday because I couldn't get time off because once again no one can help me even though I'm constantly helping them.

I mean really how are they possibly going to fill my shifts. That's a lot of fucking shifts and they refuse to hire during the holidays. They should have over hired before the holidays.

RS is here. I'm going to go cry in his arms.