gamma

Ah hA! So you DID get the zombie-cervical cancer check postcard I sent!!!! hee hee

Yes I too have had crying jags after problematic GYN services. I go to Planned Parenthood in Spfld for my gidde'up stirrup rides myself, and so far they haven't been bad. And if you're speaking of PCOS as your condition, you've got a fellow insane ovary this way!

So, by the way, I am an ass. I totally meant to send you a donation for the Walk for Animals and I flaked. Be assured, my cats gave me a stern talking to, and K's cat, Hunter, slapped me with the pimp hand paw. K & I are actually doing the Spfld walk for breast cancer awareness (good God lady: did you REALLY think I would make it 3 days from Boston???!!!) at the end of the month. I thank you for your walk on behalf of the five (yes I'm insane) cats in my household, all rescued or from shelters.

I hope all is going well in the BIG TEST study countdown. Let me know if you have any questions, or if you just want to get together and have coffee and/or pester bonfirecollapse or zode at their respective bar tending gigs. I hope you still have my phone number! I don't know when I'll be on SG again (hopefully soon), but I'll want to hear what you thought of the MTEL!

BTW, Spfld has good health insurance! We still need a replacement for the retiring English teacher in January!

Hey I looked for you at the Texas Roadhouse... I guess you couldn't make it... it's ok... we will definately figure out another night to hang out and do something

we could always go for coffee or something

I feel like people don't pay attention to what I'm saying alot of times. I know exactly what you mean. I get it at work alot and with people that say that they are my friends.

as for the pictures. I would love it so I could hand out pictures of me and Justin for christmas but I wouldn't be able to pay you all that much for them. If you want me and Justin are going to be going out on his birthday this upcoming wednesday. You are more than welcome to join us. I believe we are going to the Texas Roadhouse. I think its in East Longmeadow but I'm not sure but I could find out for you. We are, or at least Justin is, going to the Suicide Girls show in North Hampton on tuesday. All else fails if I can't afford to get the pictures done now we could always do them after Christmas so I could give you proper pay for them. Just let me know.

I didn't have power for 12 hours today. It snowed today but only a few wet heavy inches that melted in the sunlight after a few hours. Crissy's family is snowed in with no power though. THeir power went out Thursday night and the electric company is saying it could be until Tuesday until they get any power back. Freakin weird isn't it?

Anyways.. I"m feeling a life crisis coming on lately. I am sure of nothing in my life anymore. I'm only 20 and it shouldn't feel like a big deal, I shouldn't feel so trapped, but I do. I'm too rational and logical for my own good sometimes. I want you to graduate so we can talk again Miss you.

Hey hun.. I"m at Aj's right now. All is well. I'll fill ya in later.

MIss ya!

O. M. G. we neeeeeeeed to chat. I've gotta get ready for school and work right now, but soon we definitely need to talk. Its neccessary.

Things are ok. I don't feel like me really. I don't know what me is though, so I just continue on.

Oh Crap.....i'm so sorry. i never pledged any money. i had to wait until all my bills were paid and then i was going to but i was busy last week and totally forgot. i hope it went well and you reached your goal. i'll donate some money straight to the MSPCA in your name.

Hey, message me your address (or call) and I'll send you a check. As a furry baby momma myself, I am very thankful you are doing this walk. Oh, but come Oct, remember me: bonfirecollapse and I are doing the walk for breast cancer and will need some pledges!!!

ummmm...

actually, I would donate if there was a way for non-US residents...

you can call it room mates. i like to refer to it as living in sin.

i don't think we lost power last week. (i was actually at TK's that night) but i do know that a big tree branch missed my truck by only a few feet. and if my bike was home the stockade fence in my back yard would have been lying on in. so i lucked out. no damage.

If you could imagine the possibility.. being in Europe made me even worse. And.. since the expectations were so high that I would be having the most wonderful time in my life.. I dunno.. I think I've honestly started to crack. I don't know if it truly is possible for me to hold it together anymore. I don't even want to put the effort in to talk to people anymore. I don't wanna rehash the stupid things that make me miserable, that I know shouldn't make me miserable. I know that all of this misery is inside my head, I've made it up. Yet knowing that isn't enough to make it go away. So.. I sit here and allow myself to be eaten alive by the knowledge of my depression being my fault. I don't know where to go from here.

I actually haven't moved yet and we aren't going to be for awhile... I'm going to update later with why. I had put it up in my livejournal but I will need to edit it a bit to put it up tonight.

We are going to be moving possibly in the spring. We are going to pay $300 a month to stay at Justin's mom's house until our friend Tom buys the house.

I may have found a car, not sure. oy im tired right now, stayed up all n ight to take this drug test, took it, got home and passed out, its 6pm .. *groan* *passes back out*

FIRST of all, it is a little known fact that the female species can be mesmerized by the sight of the male species twirling things. That's why they don't allow boys to become majorettes. It would be anarchy!!

My list of past "bizarre" psuedo-crushes (in no particular order)
1. Adrien Brody (okay, if you saw him in Love the Hard Way you'd be high-five-ing me, ok?)
2. John Malkovich
3. Chris Noth
4. Holly Hunter (yeah, you heard me!)
5. Liev Schreiber
6. Ron Livingston
7. Kevin Spacey

My friend Jen claims I was once obsessed with what's-his-name, that redhead scenery-chewer on CSI Miami, when he was on NYPD Blue, but for obvious reasons, I have blocked that out of my consciousness. Oh, and Jen, who is a devout lesbian, crushes on Ed Harris. Talk about bizarre!

Is Rachel Ray the one who pronounces everything with such annunciation that she practically bites the camera with every word? My friend Liz made me watch the Food Channel with her once and that's the only show I remember. The toothy host was making vegetarian lasagna, but I suspect she used her giant incisors to tear some flesh off the cameraman after they stopped rolling.

Lol , love your crushes, got a thing for bobby flay myself..lol jk. hey i finnally got a fricking job working on bikes, i wicked excited

he gives all of us Justins a bad name!!!!

Hmmmm time management. Well. Here are some suggestions.
a. don't sleep. ever again.
b. develop a wicked crack and/or meth habit
c. learn to drive/go grocery shopping/speak to worthless people while sleeping (that way, all that wasted time is used wisely)

d. give yourself credit for doing all the things you are doing right now: few people can handle school AND full-time work AND a relationship AND friendships, and you are doing so well all around (regardless of lonely boob-craving boy). Why do you think I disappeared from SG for the spring? I just can't juggle it. The stress will lift eventually, and then you will have more time.

As far as Justin goes, go out with him one night. Tell him how lecherous and wrong his boob comment was, and then work into the conversation how busy your life is right now. Perhaps he doesn't realize how inappropriate he was. Better yet, take him to the Mardi Gras on that night out, and kill two birds with one stone!

Bahahahahaha! I used to have the stroke-awareness commercial memorized (because it was always on during the morning news, as I got ready for school/work).

*tuning fork*
Face! Does it droop when you ask them to smile?
Arm! (yada dah yada dah I forget this line)
Speech! Does it sound (something?) or confused?
Then it's time... Time to call 9-1-1!
Face! Arm! Speech! Time!
Act fast!
Give a loved one hope!

Very catchy. Makes me want all PSAs to be communicated through cartoon jingles!

Thank you for your encouraging comments. I appreciate your kindness. I hope you can share that success on it's time. Be well.