gamerchick28

So very, deeply, emotionally, unconventinally, irrevocably, hurt.

And I can't even get up. I just want to sit on my bed and listen to sad, sad, songs.

I now remember why I don't waste time with feelings.

The man I discontently unattached myself from months ago because of his enlistment with the army has decided to sign for another 4 years. He and I agreed to remain close (sends me flowers every month, skype every other day, close) until his deployment was over. He and I also agreed that he would discontinue his service in the army once his contract is up in March. He would move to Iowa City with me and continue his schooling. We made these decisions together. If you know me, even just an ounce, you would know how submissive I am. WE decided this TOGETHER.

So that's that. I tried. It's obvious I'm not getting any younger. He's been with me through it all: bad marriage, horrible financial decisions, moving 3 times in the past year. I need to look ahead and Iowa City has too many hotties for me to be worried about just one.
I still feel like I'm about to wither away. Any wrong move could send me into oblvion.
I'm so emo.



He was the first person to introduce me to Brand New. (Fuck that guy!)

This is me hurt gpoy bi-polar. Yup, my period is coming.