Well, I am back posting another little blog sooner than i thought i would.
I feel a lot better, considering that 10 days ago I was at the lowest point I have ever been in my life... I am happy to be here today I guess. I have made plans for tonight: a friends "Half way to forty" party. I am rather sad and girly and picked out and chose my outfit today: red tartan stockings, my sisters black leather buckled boots (I know, leather and your v*gan Annie. Its only borrowing), my sisters black lace tank, some black cut-off mini denim shorts and a long black t-shirt with that peace symbol printed in white on the front. I might find a picture tomorrow and post it up. I was put on anti-depressants and have been advised not to touch alcohol, which doesn't bother me. I hate being drunk. I also can't afford it and at least now folk won't be in my face begging me to down half a bottle of rum....
So, yeh, excited to actually do something tonight.
I am also very confused. Sexually confused. No biggie, I mean I have been bi-sexual for about 4 years now and know that I *definitely* do feel attracted towards other women, but over the past 6 months my attraction towards guys, has, how should I put it...gone. I feel nothing. And I had managed to find the BEST bloke ever to actually fall in love with and be merry but I stopped actually fancying him. I didn't want any sex, didn't want him to touch me and I was worried. SO then i thought about it, a lot and I realised I feel like that about guys in general. So yippee...Annie is a lesbian. Hehe now I wanna have some fun...trouble is the girls that I ahev been with have been either bi or "straight and experimenting" which basically means that at the end of the day they would rather have some cock and leave me somewhere in the background. I lvoe girls but my god can they bitch.
I am making (or my mum is making rather) a mushroom and tofu couscous risotto for lunch. She loves cooking and I have work to do so she kindly offered to cook it for me. I am getting the hang of this vegan malarky...and I really enjoy cooking vegan recipes. Its so damn tasty
Anyway, must dash. Food smells fucking good and I am dying for a glass of ginger beer.
Love of lots.
I feel a lot better, considering that 10 days ago I was at the lowest point I have ever been in my life... I am happy to be here today I guess. I have made plans for tonight: a friends "Half way to forty" party. I am rather sad and girly and picked out and chose my outfit today: red tartan stockings, my sisters black leather buckled boots (I know, leather and your v*gan Annie. Its only borrowing), my sisters black lace tank, some black cut-off mini denim shorts and a long black t-shirt with that peace symbol printed in white on the front. I might find a picture tomorrow and post it up. I was put on anti-depressants and have been advised not to touch alcohol, which doesn't bother me. I hate being drunk. I also can't afford it and at least now folk won't be in my face begging me to down half a bottle of rum....
So, yeh, excited to actually do something tonight.
I am also very confused. Sexually confused. No biggie, I mean I have been bi-sexual for about 4 years now and know that I *definitely* do feel attracted towards other women, but over the past 6 months my attraction towards guys, has, how should I put it...gone. I feel nothing. And I had managed to find the BEST bloke ever to actually fall in love with and be merry but I stopped actually fancying him. I didn't want any sex, didn't want him to touch me and I was worried. SO then i thought about it, a lot and I realised I feel like that about guys in general. So yippee...Annie is a lesbian. Hehe now I wanna have some fun...trouble is the girls that I ahev been with have been either bi or "straight and experimenting" which basically means that at the end of the day they would rather have some cock and leave me somewhere in the background. I lvoe girls but my god can they bitch.
I am making (or my mum is making rather) a mushroom and tofu couscous risotto for lunch. She loves cooking and I have work to do so she kindly offered to cook it for me. I am getting the hang of this vegan malarky...and I really enjoy cooking vegan recipes. Its so damn tasty
Anyway, must dash. Food smells fucking good and I am dying for a glass of ginger beer.
Love of lots.
half way to forty party is a great idea
as far as sexuality, i'm kinda with you there. i think each day i like ladies a bit more. i'm having some rather grandiose issues finding one though. women confuse me.
thanks for your lovin pretty lady, you're wonderful. ♥