I guess I'm upset at Ariel. The day after I spent hours cleaning the bathroom so it would be nice for her, she cleans it...wtf? Even after I had told her what I had done. She leaves her shit around the house but blames everyone else for making a mess. She is constantly after Ben and Adrian to do things for her. Adrian keeps giving his money to her, keeps buying her things and she doesn't respect that at all. She's moved everything around the house and put her things before everyone elses, turning the bathroom into some kind of growing fungus perfumed jungle organism. I just spilled cranberry juice on the floor, so it's going to stain...I, of course, cannot find the large bottle of Oxi-Clean. She acts like she owns the place. She's threatening that if we do one thing out of step while her mother visits, she'll go crazy. She needs to learn some humility. She should know her station in this house as a guest. Whenever she needs something from Ben, he just jumps to. That really bothers me because he shouldn't have to feel like he needs to or anything like that. She treats me like some house bitch, telling me to take out the trash...not offering to help. She complains about mysterious smells and she says she won't make herself food because everything is filthy. She refuses to eat anything anyone brings her unless it's something she begged someone to get for her from a million miles away after they just got home.
I think I'm mad at Ben as well but I'm not sure why. He talks to Ariel whenever she comes out and I somehow feel less imported, less loved. He talks a lot to Adrien and not so much to me...even though Adrian is hardly a friend. I don't want to make a big deal out of this, though. I believe that the harmony of our house is more important than my stupid, petty, selfish self. I just feel...exasperated.
On top of all that, I was fired and I haven't been up to selling myself out to someone who's just gunna fire me within a month. I keep thinking, I should have stayed at Quizno's even though most of the people there were shitheads. Everything feels so hopeless.
I think I'm mad at Ben as well but I'm not sure why. He talks to Ariel whenever she comes out and I somehow feel less imported, less loved. He talks a lot to Adrien and not so much to me...even though Adrian is hardly a friend. I don't want to make a big deal out of this, though. I believe that the harmony of our house is more important than my stupid, petty, selfish self. I just feel...exasperated.
On top of all that, I was fired and I haven't been up to selling myself out to someone who's just gunna fire me within a month. I keep thinking, I should have stayed at Quizno's even though most of the people there were shitheads. Everything feels so hopeless.