Pressure, depression, loneliness, low salaries, shared cabin, restrictions, rules... Just a few of the things we have to do/follow. I should be grateful that i have a job, i am, but with the cost of my health and my sanity. I was never a heavy drinker or abused of drugs, but here I went to the bottom, I was drinking everyday, until the day I fuck it up badly... Luckily nothing bad happened besides Embarrassing myself, but i felt really bad.
I'm 6 days without drinking, and today I felt like I needed something, just anything to keep my head out of here. But I'm trying to be strong... Is a hard battle plus extended work hours...
Still I have 4 months ahead ... My contract is 8 months plus I want to try to buy a laptop to work from home, but I'm not sure I'll be able to I still have to pay some bills in my country.
Life ain't easy I guess.
But soon my photo album will be released and this is really exciting for me, being here is part of a dream coming true, changing my life...
I'll finish this contract, go back home and dedicate myself for all the things I love to do. Pursuing happiness isn't easy but it's the only way.
Love to all.
Xoxo
