fuzzyky

Well; lesse......................

If ya wanna hear a grown man cry... Read on.

I might as well dump my fears here.

I have spent the last "how" many months talking about my paramedic class????

I've said that I'm a graduate,(and I am); I've talked about the clinicals I need to do(and I've got 62 hrs left to go); and I also report that I still have yet to start my ride-time(FIVE Hundred hours)..............

SO............ WTF could go wrong?????

Well, citizens............. Lemme tell ya.

I have committed the cardinal sin of having been TARDY for 3 (THREE) shifts in the last 365 days.

Actually.... it's 4 days. But the first 3 were enough to have gotten my ass in the sling.

If you've read even one of my last few blogs......... You know that my POV (privaetly owned vechicle) has been in the shop for 5 weeks. As a result of that ... I was late 3 times trying to get to work either; on the bus, or a cab, or w/ friends..........

NEVER yet have I called in sick. Never yet have I not made it to ride my area....

But I HAVE been late. 4 times. All were my "fault". And as I'm a grown-up..........They're ALL my fault.

I OWN each and every one of 'em.

So; I now get to hold my breath, and see if Command will bust me the fuck up.

And BEFORE any of you start to tell me that Command wouldn't possible shit-can me for that lil thing.............

I'll tell You...............................................

I "EXPECT" to be throw out of Medic class.

So, Very soon..... I'll be the EX-paramedic student Know as Fuzzy..................



I "WILL" fight on. I WILL stay here and soldier on...

But I gotta tell you..... This is a big, massive, waste of a resource. (bootin' my ass that is)

The Medics that I respect STILL feel good when they hear on the radio that Medic 277 is responding w/ them.

The Medics that I respect STILL tell me to do stuff that an extra set of medic hands would do; IF an extra set of Medic hands were available.

and they STILL walk into a scene, and take; at face value; ON MY WORD, the report I give them.........................

SO..... Come hell or high water; I'm STILL the ass-whippin'-est tech you've never not met.

I just fully expect to (soon) NOT be the paramedic student that you all have encouaged all this time.

Despite ALL your great words....... I figure I've put my own dick in my own ear.

I will tell you one thing.

If MY mother needed care... I'd let Me care for her.

If your mother needed care.... I'd hope that you'd feel comfortable lettin' me care for her too.

THAT is the yard-stick "I" use.

Thx for all ya'll's encouragement to date...........................

Will advise.

KEEP FINGERS CROSSED...........................................................................

F