funmeatwad

I was out drinking for a friends 21st and now I'm home alone drunk and horny this sucks worst feeling in a long time considering I was watching my friends with couples and I just sat at tables alone and neglected fuck my life sometimes when is stuff going to go right for once, its just one thing after another. depressed/depression I fucking hate it has always fucked me over I'm so selfconious and I feel like a fucking loser cause I just get ignored by everyone and left alone. I don't know what to do anymore hate being alone and let down by friends and family all the time I don't understand I'm to nice do I let people push me around to much. I don't know, just want to curl up in a ball and cuddle with my pillow at least that's soft and comforting.