WARNING: This may become non-sensical, my apologies. Each "paragraph" is a thought I had all the result of a little angst im going through, and truth's constant reminder that life is out there and it only continues if you let it.
I have a wonderful life. To be real I cannot complain\about any situation im in, sure im broke and blah blah blah but the actuality of it is I have no real reason to be upset
Are the reasons we find to be upset a sorry excuse to wallow and pity? Or are they something more, something of decent importance?
In the utter confusion of it all we usually find moments of clarity that quickly slip away back in to the low drum that is the repeated beat we walk to. We lose ourselves to the same place which we came from due to the fact that we are doomed to have the same thoughts, however depressing they may be, cycle around in our minds.
The lies we tell ourselves to keep afloat and survive, when the higher road is easily attainable. By this of course I mean we could easily jump to a higher level of consciousness and therefore pull ourselves out of any funk we may have fallen into
but why dont we? Is there some sort of masochistic feelings of relief every time we mourn or pine? Like a little bit of the darker side of ourselves is released only to bite the hand that originally fed it? It makes sense to us for a brief and clouded moment.
but truth doesnt care much for our self destriction, and if you refuse to move along with truth, then it quickly will leave you to die, or at least become unstable in your own sanity.
More often then not my wants dont get in the way. I will splurge on stuff I dont need, but that makes life a little more fun, have cool stuff lying around, to make your place of residence a little prettier, and to have symbols of time.but the Deeper wants we all have inside of our lives grasp up with a choke-like hold and refuse to let go unless we confront it. But admitting and taking action of confrontation isnt easy, its like a war, many battles, 2 outcomes.
I want to wipe the slate clean, but that is it, just another want of mine. I hope I can figure out why I dwell on this stuff, and why all the good girls are taken.
Also im watching the patriot, I forgot how badass this movie is
I have a wonderful life. To be real I cannot complain\about any situation im in, sure im broke and blah blah blah but the actuality of it is I have no real reason to be upset
Are the reasons we find to be upset a sorry excuse to wallow and pity? Or are they something more, something of decent importance?
In the utter confusion of it all we usually find moments of clarity that quickly slip away back in to the low drum that is the repeated beat we walk to. We lose ourselves to the same place which we came from due to the fact that we are doomed to have the same thoughts, however depressing they may be, cycle around in our minds.
The lies we tell ourselves to keep afloat and survive, when the higher road is easily attainable. By this of course I mean we could easily jump to a higher level of consciousness and therefore pull ourselves out of any funk we may have fallen into
but why dont we? Is there some sort of masochistic feelings of relief every time we mourn or pine? Like a little bit of the darker side of ourselves is released only to bite the hand that originally fed it? It makes sense to us for a brief and clouded moment.
but truth doesnt care much for our self destriction, and if you refuse to move along with truth, then it quickly will leave you to die, or at least become unstable in your own sanity.
More often then not my wants dont get in the way. I will splurge on stuff I dont need, but that makes life a little more fun, have cool stuff lying around, to make your place of residence a little prettier, and to have symbols of time.but the Deeper wants we all have inside of our lives grasp up with a choke-like hold and refuse to let go unless we confront it. But admitting and taking action of confrontation isnt easy, its like a war, many battles, 2 outcomes.
I want to wipe the slate clean, but that is it, just another want of mine. I hope I can figure out why I dwell on this stuff, and why all the good girls are taken.
Also im watching the patriot, I forgot how badass this movie is
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nope. they're looking for good guys, who happen to ALLLLL be claimed by horrible girls.