wow, next post. This is getting out of hand!...
so, my ex just passed by to give me back her stuff and pick hers up and I did the most difficult thing I ever had to do, which was not look back when I went back into the flat. But it was surprisingly easy to do... hmm...
She also hugged me like she missed me and I have to admit, that was a big compliment to me, as she's the one who sent me the email ending with how I was a (and I quote) "nice friend". Email? Nice Friend? I'm just glad I avoided getting worked up about her visit before she came over. Why am I such a pussy when it comes to women? Oh yea, it's cuz I'm a total sub, now I remember. The thing that gets me off most in sex is hearing my partner cum. Well, there you have it.
so anyway, now I'm by meself again, certainly not thinking about Leila, who I've been fantasizing about for 7 years, who left me with no real clear reason (not another man, not an argument... just, sorry, but I have to go now) after a year and a half. I would like to say it hurts less over time, but I think the reality of the situation is that I can simply cope with the pain a little better.
[intermission to listen to BigBand rendition of flight of the Bumblebee:
Wow!]
[and another to listen Rafael Mendez do the same:
IMHO, rafael is an amazing man and if I was a woman he would make me tingle all over as he breathes through his ears. Did you see his performance on the mexican hat dance?!?!?!?!]
Well, the horns made me feel better
Made me think that I should have showed off more of my amazing new physique rather than the crappy moves I learned in breakdancing.... The week we'd broken up I started to do some weightlifting. And it's been two months since we saw each other (yes, she's had my laptop etc for 2 months!!), so I've gone up 2 weight categories and I have way more definition, especially around the shoulders.
On reading the above paragraph again, I can't really think why the trumpets made me want to show off my muscles... maybe listening to Rock while pumping iron went to my head and now I'm crazy? Nah.
Either way, the mead and wine we made together were forgotten here, so leila's going to have to come back and get her share of the alcobooty!
To anyone reading this and in Scotland, I need a drink a smoke and a fuck. I can supply all the necessary ingredients for all three and I don't particularly care which order they are done in or who with, so long as they match my long list of criteria (attractive and a good laugh). Any takers?
I think I'll leave that one open for a while...
Ciao,
mordechai funkensteinberg. (aka the J00, or mister the J00 to you!)
PS: I recently found out that pictures of my penis that were in the attachments folder (rate the penis topic from the sexaholics group, what can I say?) offended some members. I'd like to take this opportunity to apologise for their shock. At the same time, well, what can I say? It's SG, right? You see down the page where it clearly states that I'm a member of Sexaholics? anyway, I didn't mean to offend anyone and I will henceforth only post the dirties to my ISP's webspace... at least, until I get off my arse and actually get an SB photoshoot organised. After that, well, we'll see. At least there will be some more warning involved.
PPS: On the same topic, I believe it was Bill Hicks who said that living in a democracy gives you the right to express disagreement with something that offends you. It does not however give you the right to live life without ever being offended. Please, if anyone ever has any issue with me, what I do, what I think, the way I behave, who and what I am, or anything else for that matter, I invite you to a polite discussion in this very safe and protective forum so we can resolve our differences like the adults we all assured SG we are when we checked that tick box. Thank you.
PPPS: I'm really bad at apologising aren't I? At least I got to vent and say what I think.
PPPPS: This has nothing to do with "recent events" This is a general disclaimer to all who take offence at what I do/am/think/don't do/say/show/or indeed, all of the above. I don't participate very much because I'm out of the house for work 11 hours a day.
schmeh, I'm going to watch some star trek and eet chicken. Piece.
PVS: Found this on stileproject. Don't go there if you're easily offended. I'm serious. Cock is the least offensive thing you're likely to see in there. They've got a lot of really cool shit, but also a lot of bad shit. Seriously, I have to think twice about visiting that site.
Having said that, this image is WAY cool:
so, my ex just passed by to give me back her stuff and pick hers up and I did the most difficult thing I ever had to do, which was not look back when I went back into the flat. But it was surprisingly easy to do... hmm...
She also hugged me like she missed me and I have to admit, that was a big compliment to me, as she's the one who sent me the email ending with how I was a (and I quote) "nice friend". Email? Nice Friend? I'm just glad I avoided getting worked up about her visit before she came over. Why am I such a pussy when it comes to women? Oh yea, it's cuz I'm a total sub, now I remember. The thing that gets me off most in sex is hearing my partner cum. Well, there you have it.
so anyway, now I'm by meself again, certainly not thinking about Leila, who I've been fantasizing about for 7 years, who left me with no real clear reason (not another man, not an argument... just, sorry, but I have to go now) after a year and a half. I would like to say it hurts less over time, but I think the reality of the situation is that I can simply cope with the pain a little better.
[intermission to listen to BigBand rendition of flight of the Bumblebee:
Wow!]
[and another to listen Rafael Mendez do the same:
IMHO, rafael is an amazing man and if I was a woman he would make me tingle all over as he breathes through his ears. Did you see his performance on the mexican hat dance?!?!?!?!]
Well, the horns made me feel better
Made me think that I should have showed off more of my amazing new physique rather than the crappy moves I learned in breakdancing.... The week we'd broken up I started to do some weightlifting. And it's been two months since we saw each other (yes, she's had my laptop etc for 2 months!!), so I've gone up 2 weight categories and I have way more definition, especially around the shoulders. On reading the above paragraph again, I can't really think why the trumpets made me want to show off my muscles... maybe listening to Rock while pumping iron went to my head and now I'm crazy? Nah.
Either way, the mead and wine we made together were forgotten here, so leila's going to have to come back and get her share of the alcobooty!
To anyone reading this and in Scotland, I need a drink a smoke and a fuck. I can supply all the necessary ingredients for all three and I don't particularly care which order they are done in or who with, so long as they match my long list of criteria (attractive and a good laugh). Any takers?
I think I'll leave that one open for a while...
Ciao,
mordechai funkensteinberg. (aka the J00, or mister the J00 to you!)
PS: I recently found out that pictures of my penis that were in the attachments folder (rate the penis topic from the sexaholics group, what can I say?) offended some members. I'd like to take this opportunity to apologise for their shock. At the same time, well, what can I say? It's SG, right? You see down the page where it clearly states that I'm a member of Sexaholics? anyway, I didn't mean to offend anyone and I will henceforth only post the dirties to my ISP's webspace... at least, until I get off my arse and actually get an SB photoshoot organised. After that, well, we'll see. At least there will be some more warning involved.
PPS: On the same topic, I believe it was Bill Hicks who said that living in a democracy gives you the right to express disagreement with something that offends you. It does not however give you the right to live life without ever being offended. Please, if anyone ever has any issue with me, what I do, what I think, the way I behave, who and what I am, or anything else for that matter, I invite you to a polite discussion in this very safe and protective forum so we can resolve our differences like the adults we all assured SG we are when we checked that tick box. Thank you.
PPPS: I'm really bad at apologising aren't I? At least I got to vent and say what I think.
PPPPS: This has nothing to do with "recent events" This is a general disclaimer to all who take offence at what I do/am/think/don't do/say/show/or indeed, all of the above. I don't participate very much because I'm out of the house for work 11 hours a day.
schmeh, I'm going to watch some star trek and eet chicken. Piece.
PVS: Found this on stileproject. Don't go there if you're easily offended. I'm serious. Cock is the least offensive thing you're likely to see in there. They've got a lot of really cool shit, but also a lot of bad shit. Seriously, I have to think twice about visiting that site.
Having said that, this image is WAY cool: