fueltanker

Well I guess I'll start using this journal thing sence ive never had one before. I got stuff to say but noone to really tell so I'll put it here. I got back from my christmas vacation and I should have just stayed here and not gone home. The whole time i felt like I was a burden on everyone and they had to work thier schedule around me. I also had a girl that I have been after for almost 3 years tell me she loves me but is not in love with me. It felt like a knife going through my heart, it still hurts to. I dont know what to really do right now. I blew the engine in my vehicle my bank account ran almost out and the girl i thought I loved doesnt love me. Isnt life grand. The only thing that seems to make me happy anymore is my videogames. I can just turn them on and the world goes away. I know that probably makes me sound like a big nerd or whatever the terms are now days but it works. People read books some people write stories some people just go think, I play videogames. There still seems to be some kinda void there that I dont know how to fill. I dunno i guess I'll find that thing one day. Whatever it is.