Here are my recent posts today on myspace. Easier to copy/paste:
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Spleen's Asleep
Current mood: happy
The bat that lives in my hallway, Spleen Squeedily Spooge is alive! Jordan talked to a friend that told him, Spleen was just sleeping in kind of a hibernation way because of the lack of food and the cold in the hallway. He's not in his sleepy spot now so I'm assuming he's flying around or settling somewhere else. I left the back door open so he can fly out if he wants to. Awwww. My bat is ok!
Pointless Ranting
Current mood: calm
Sooo. I've been in a rut for awhile now. Come to think of it, I don't think there's ever been a time in my life where I haven't had a tedious rountine running my life. I'm starting to wonder when I'll get tired of it and make an attempt at change. I need to move again, I think. I feel so old and I'm only 21. Shouldn't I be having fun? Or be in college? I already got the drug thing that we all go through at some point out of the way when I was 17-19. So what do I do now? I don't know if I'm prepared for a job that's going to take up 60% of the hours I'm awake. I don't have a family to care for. I'm not married. I'm not really ready to say that this is what my life will be. Sure could use the stability of having a decent paycheck every week, though.
I'm afraid that since it took alot for me to get the job I have, if I quit in the next year or so, I won't find another job that pays so good.
I don't know why I'm just now thinking about all of this. Probably the severe change in job hours and the type of job I'll be doing. I shouldn't complain because at least I have a job. But like everyone else, I would rather win the lottery than work. Now I know why old people and hillbillies play the lottery so much: for that shred of hope that maybe a piece of paper will give them a reason to finally stop wasting their lives working instead of living.
I suppose that my feeling this way is just the product of a pre-mid life crisis. In other words, I feel as if I'm wasting my life. I haven't been out of the state (other than to see my dad) in years. I haven't been out of Marysville for more than a day, in months. I need some excitement. I need uncertainty. I need an irresponsible road trip or something.
Maybe I'll figure out a time to do that. But I'll have to request the time off, have it approved by Margaret, etc. And that's responsible and organized. But I'll still have a job if I do it that way. Next step is to find someone/people who are willing to go, find out where I'm going, and save enough money to go.
Annnyway. I don't know why I'm complaining. I'm tired. I'm fine.
Currently watching:
Shaun of the Dead
Release date: By 21 December, 2004
K then. I also found out why this girl at work keeps getting the most calls out of all of us. It's because she's cheating. I feel way better about my stats now. Not that it matters because today I didn't even get on the phone. I had training and then did MO data entry. Awesomeness.
EDIT:
My job will be 9 hours a day, 4-6 days a week (not sure yet), still be making $10.50 /hr, and it'll bring in relatively $600 more a month than before. I did some calculating and after just a few months, I can afford to buy a new car. My prelude. That car is reason enough to just grin and bear it. And when I have it, I'll drive it to work and it'll remind me of why I go to work: to finally be able to afford nice things.
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Spleen's Asleep
Current mood: happy
The bat that lives in my hallway, Spleen Squeedily Spooge is alive! Jordan talked to a friend that told him, Spleen was just sleeping in kind of a hibernation way because of the lack of food and the cold in the hallway. He's not in his sleepy spot now so I'm assuming he's flying around or settling somewhere else. I left the back door open so he can fly out if he wants to. Awwww. My bat is ok!
Pointless Ranting
Current mood: calm
Sooo. I've been in a rut for awhile now. Come to think of it, I don't think there's ever been a time in my life where I haven't had a tedious rountine running my life. I'm starting to wonder when I'll get tired of it and make an attempt at change. I need to move again, I think. I feel so old and I'm only 21. Shouldn't I be having fun? Or be in college? I already got the drug thing that we all go through at some point out of the way when I was 17-19. So what do I do now? I don't know if I'm prepared for a job that's going to take up 60% of the hours I'm awake. I don't have a family to care for. I'm not married. I'm not really ready to say that this is what my life will be. Sure could use the stability of having a decent paycheck every week, though.
I'm afraid that since it took alot for me to get the job I have, if I quit in the next year or so, I won't find another job that pays so good.
I don't know why I'm just now thinking about all of this. Probably the severe change in job hours and the type of job I'll be doing. I shouldn't complain because at least I have a job. But like everyone else, I would rather win the lottery than work. Now I know why old people and hillbillies play the lottery so much: for that shred of hope that maybe a piece of paper will give them a reason to finally stop wasting their lives working instead of living.
I suppose that my feeling this way is just the product of a pre-mid life crisis. In other words, I feel as if I'm wasting my life. I haven't been out of the state (other than to see my dad) in years. I haven't been out of Marysville for more than a day, in months. I need some excitement. I need uncertainty. I need an irresponsible road trip or something.
Maybe I'll figure out a time to do that. But I'll have to request the time off, have it approved by Margaret, etc. And that's responsible and organized. But I'll still have a job if I do it that way. Next step is to find someone/people who are willing to go, find out where I'm going, and save enough money to go.
Annnyway. I don't know why I'm complaining. I'm tired. I'm fine.
Currently watching:
Shaun of the Dead
Release date: By 21 December, 2004
K then. I also found out why this girl at work keeps getting the most calls out of all of us. It's because she's cheating. I feel way better about my stats now. Not that it matters because today I didn't even get on the phone. I had training and then did MO data entry. Awesomeness.
EDIT:
My job will be 9 hours a day, 4-6 days a week (not sure yet), still be making $10.50 /hr, and it'll bring in relatively $600 more a month than before. I did some calculating and after just a few months, I can afford to buy a new car. My prelude. That car is reason enough to just grin and bear it. And when I have it, I'll drive it to work and it'll remind me of why I go to work: to finally be able to afford nice things.
VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
_panda_:
g o back to college please.
kingoftown:
many congratulations on the promotion.