Unfinished thought: the women I find most attractive are behind a pay wall, and not looking to be hit on, so much as complimented. I don't feel comfortable paying to masturbate. Equally uncomfortable paying just to admire, or for the attention. (That feels really sad).
I'm in the determinism camp ( free will being a false narrative, and most decisions are informed by your chemical state it mood, combined with the current outside stumuli)
So while I love looking at women, I find monetizing that to be morally questionable. Like taking advantage of human impulses for profit.
Having world view like this is why I avoid people. I lean towards thinking we're all deplorable, and so are the societal systems we set up and use. But when the system is corrupt, participants of the system aren't inherently currupt.
So I keep drooling over attractive woman,who I want to sleep with and who only want my patronage 🤤😋