fruitless

well my hearts been broken now for 4 solid months. and people are right it does get a little easier everyday. but it still overwhelming. especially now that there is snow on the ground. no one to make snow angels with. i'm trying tokeep busy with this little life of mine. i broke a mirror last night so i could make this mosaic looking for the top of my organ. last night was TwT, so that kept me a little busy. but keeping active doesn't change the fact that i'm going to sleep alone every night by myself. and after sleeping in the same bed with her for a little over a year, it but's a huge void there. i always get the feeling that she is sitting next to me and when i turn to say something she's not there. there's just that emptiness. so i useally end talking to myself anyway. sorry if you think this is sappy. but i'm fucking depressed today. today i plan on listening to holopaws little shaver song. which will make me even worse today. so i got that to look foward to.