fruitless

Ithink something is very wrong with me. That or i am drinking way too much coffee before night time. I am so exhausted. I've been working so much overtime. the checks are really nice but fuck man i'm so tired. right now i'm listening to morphine and sobbing. It's not that i am depressed, it cause i get all emotional when i'm tired. i'm vegan and my mom just filled my fridge with a bunch of meat. i feel almost tempted to eat a massive amount of it. but i would probaly end up all over the place. Isure hope caroline comes over tonight. i really miss her and she lives three blocks from my new place. i hope she doen't give up on me. I really need a drink.