fruitless

could my life get any better wow. what a wonderful moment to be alive. i might be losing it but it feels great i'm just overwhelm with this this well fuck i guess it's happiness. nothing happend that was good today. i by myself and i feel fucking fantastic. hope your day is going just as good.

Why is it that all my friends are ditching me because i live in the cities. and none of the city folk seem to know i exist. at a point where it would be could to have human contact there isn't any. And when i really don't want people around they are always there. like when your getting down and dirty with someone they always...
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well i feel like a total dip shit even though i shoulden't. good news i can make rent my truck payment and insurance so i'm not as broke as i thought i was. my partners dad still isn't out of the hospital . but i think he's getting out wendsday. so i'll probally have to go to her folks house and rake a bunch of...
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Well its offical i am pathatic. i went one whole day without talking to her. and i broke the silence this afternoon. for those of you that don't know i was avoiding my partner for a week. but i could only manage a day. pretty lame huh?
oh ya i'm fucking broke.

Last night me and my friends went to shoot some pool. And their was a bunch of fucking redneck jocks that made fun of my buddy vern. We were gonna throw glazed donuts at them but it really wasen't worth our time. so i didn't get home until four in the morning. Sleeping peacefully and i get a call from my mom. So i woke...
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Well today I t to go see Caroline's dad in the hospital. he's doing all right and should be out by tuesday. He asked me if Iwould rake the yard for him and knowing me i did. I really hate fall. FUCKING LEAFS . by the time i finished raking the yard there was more leaves on the ground than there was when i started....
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Has anybody heard of the band Morphine. I you haven't , look them up today and prepare yourselfs to be enlightend. It puts you in a state or i'm out of my fucking mind

You know it's pretty neat just to sit at a coffee shop and watch all the people. they work in wierd ways like some are conversing and a girl is completly stressing balancing her check book. A guy in the corner has no respect for anybody and he's hacking and spiting in a cup. A girl is bragging how rich her boyfriend is. A FAT...
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Dear diary or journal
i have a big confession to make. I decided to try some pizza after being completly vegan for nearly 3 years. These little throw up guys represent how many times i wanted to puke. but actually it wasen't as horrible as i would have thought. i really miss cheese sometimes. Well i spoke to caroline and her dad is in the...
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Well this morning I woke up late but made it to work on time . But I forgot my cell phone . Today at work I made Caroline a little concrete heart and put in a little envolope and inserted it into her lunchbox. I'm pretty sure she found it, but i haven't heard nothing from her yet. I sure do miss her. Anyway I...
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Ithink something is very wrong with me. That or i am drinking way too much coffee before night time. I am so exhausted. I've been working so much overtime. the checks are really nice but fuck man i'm so tired. right now i'm listening to morphine and sobbing. It's not that i am depressed, it cause i get all emotional when i'm tired. i'm vegan...
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Well I finally moved into my place. What a fucking drag. My partner spent the night with me. I wanted to fuck but she wasn't feeling good so that sucked. After a long stressful day at work I decided to go up to caffetto(a local coffee shop in minneapolis) and write in my journal. I wish someone would give me a little human contact. Later...
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