wow what a fantastic day.
today at work i was so busy it only seemed like i was there 5 out 10 hours i was. last night i went drinking and ended up at my lovers house and ended up purposeing to her she said yes but i have no recolection of this event ever taking place. and i just found out about it like...
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today at work i was so busy it only seemed like i was there 5 out 10 hours i was. last night i went drinking and ended up at my lovers house and ended up purposeing to her she said yes but i have no recolection of this event ever taking place. and i just found out about it like...
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a good friend of mine just bought me the book everyone poops. i thought i would share that with everyone.
on the other hand i just got word that i might be getting laid of at work. so if that happens i'm pretty much( how should i put it, oh yeah) fucked. so that made my day quite enjoyable. i wish someone wanted to go...
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on the other hand i just got word that i might be getting laid of at work. so if that happens i'm pretty much( how should i put it, oh yeah) fucked. so that made my day quite enjoyable. i wish someone wanted to go...
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well another day another dollar. that's exactly what i need to. i have never lived by myself before. i always had roommates and family i lived with. so it's relly wierd when you want to turn to your side expecting someone to talk to, but there is no one there. that feeling really sucks. but i'll sit here and drink my new castle and try...
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serendipitous:
Living by myself was the best time for me... it made me learn the most about myself and what I needed/wanted, good or bad.
My mom went from living with her parents to living with my father (for 26 years). When they divorced, she had never really lived by herself. More than 10 years later, she dreads ever living by herself... do you want to be 60 fearing living alone?
Living alone: you have to do everything and there is no one to blame. Plus, it gives you time to think. Sure it can get lonely if you let it. If you don't, you can do things you like or look into potential interests you never knew existed. Point being, you might discover a lot about yourself if you let yourself. Take some classes, find a new hobby... you might just find something you can be passionate about (or at least enjoy for a while
).
It'll get easier... that I promise!
xoxo
My mom went from living with her parents to living with my father (for 26 years). When they divorced, she had never really lived by herself. More than 10 years later, she dreads ever living by herself... do you want to be 60 fearing living alone?
Living alone: you have to do everything and there is no one to blame. Plus, it gives you time to think. Sure it can get lonely if you let it. If you don't, you can do things you like or look into potential interests you never knew existed. Point being, you might discover a lot about yourself if you let yourself. Take some classes, find a new hobby... you might just find something you can be passionate about (or at least enjoy for a while
).
It'll get easier... that I promise!
xoxo
i wanted to go up so bad. but it got held off until this coming weekend. this weekend was an allright time. me and my cousin jillian went bowling. i wish she lived around here. but he lives in michigan. so she left yesterday. and tonight i got home from work updated once and then went to sleep. so figured i would update again. i...
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fruitless:
thanks judas. it means a whole bunch 
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lori_:
there's a suspension group here in nm, a lot of them are sg's. I'm going to try to check out the next show, i've never seen it live, but always been curious. I'd like to try it at least once.
well the suspension was held off until after the holidays. so i am a little upset but not too bad. i wish i would meet a girl one to hang out with tell my stories to. and be able too have someone to tell me stories. but enough of my wants. i had a horrible thanksgiving and i dislike most my relitives. and i'm single...
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user304975207:
Your profile pic creeps me out
fruitless:
i'm sorry. i'll change it.
i'm sitting in my apartment tonight drinking new castle. i hope somebody calls me back i had three people to hang out with tonight and now they are MIA. fucking assholes 
. other then that i had to work today which wasen't as bad as i thought it was going to be. and i have been sitting here trying to fiqur out what the hell...
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. other then that i had to work today which wasen't as bad as i thought it was going to be. and i have been sitting here trying to fiqur out what the hell... Read More
lori_:
i'm on the same page you are....and it's fucking boring!
ta2dmom:
Did you do your suspension?
better drink tonight. suspensions tomarrow night. am i spelling that right, i don't think i am. i want someone to come with me and make snow angels. 
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fruitless:
yeah i guess your right but there has got to be something besides staying in. i stuck here listening to morphine which isn't half bad i guess, but it's a little lame. 
fruitless:
opps
well i found out the suspension is this weekend. i was hoping it was next weekend because now i don't have any body to talk to me while i'm going up. i need someone because i just become a huge fucking ball of nerves. dammit i was so excited too. anyway ihave been trying to clean my apartment
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lori_:
i see you finally got a picture up, I like it, have a good turkey day!
ta2dmom:
Have a great Turkey day and I'm sure you can find someone to be with your during your suspension. Enjoy!
wow
what a wonderful evening i had last night. i was really prepared to get the old ticker ripped out and thrown on the ground for a stomping session. but it never even came about. she was nice for once. well dinner kinda sucked because of some stupid fight, but we put it behind us and enjoyed the rest of the night with eachother. and...
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what a wonderful evening i had last night. i was really prepared to get the old ticker ripped out and thrown on the ground for a stomping session. but it never even came about. she was nice for once. well dinner kinda sucked because of some stupid fight, but we put it behind us and enjoyed the rest of the night with eachother. and...
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serendipitous:
No problem! I probably talk more in that group than I need to, but I've been there before and I know how hard it can be to leave. I wish I had a support group when I was in bad relationships becase maybe I wold haveleft arlier. No one deserves crappy treatment and all too often, we find ourselves getting used to it when we should tell them to shape up! I hope it gets easier and easier each day and know that we're all there for you even if you slide!
I probably talk more in that group than I need to, but I've been there before and I know how hard it can be to leave. I wish I had a support group when I was in bad relationships becase maybe I wold haveleft arlier. No one deserves crappy treatment and all too often, we find ourselves getting used to it when we should tell them to shape up! I hope it gets easier and easier each day and know that we're all there for you even if you slide! 
aaardvark:
Yeah, totally fucking bondage gear. It'll be awesome. But you better be ready to get your ass kicked with some fucking chains. Then afterward i'm going to parade your bondaged ass around town for humilition purposes.
GOING TO GET MY HEART BROKE BE BACK LATER 
lori_:
good luck with that? 
aaardvark:
Ball gags totally required.
fruitless:
friends
so today i had to go to anoka which was horrible but i thought i would just drive down some random streets and out of nowhere i see a organ sitting next to the curb with a free sign on it. so i knocked on their door and asked if it still worked and it does so i loaded it up and brought it home....
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which was horrible but i thought i would just drive down some random streets and out of nowhere i see a organ sitting next to the curb with a free sign on it. so i knocked on their door and asked if it still worked and it does so i loaded it up and brought it home.... Read More
ta2dmom:
who cares if the neighbors get pissed off let em cry in their beers because hey! Free organ! (BTW, that's my favorite price for anything lol) We went to the design center today. It was pretty cool picking everything out!
Also, you know what I think about your situation w/ your woman.