I think I must be suffering from depression. I am unmotivated, lathargic, and irritable. I had a good day yesterday, but I spent too much money and I just wanted to be by myself.
I took my son and his father out to the Good Guys Car show in Pleasanton, which was fun. He didn't have any money so I dropped $30 to get us into the show, then another $25-30 on food, which cut into my t-shirt, sticker money a lot.
After that, I dropped off my ex and picked up my daughter (she didn't want to go to the car show). We went to the Cherry Festival, a street faire here in San Leandro. It was fun, but the tickets for rides and games were about a buck apiece and everthuing was three to four tickets. I got irriated because I didn't want to spend more money.
I just got a raise and my boss told me that I would get a $1,000. bonus too. I got the raise, which was great, but the bonus didn't come through. I paid some bills and now I am fucking BROKE again. I remember the days that I could spend $30 a day on beer, but that was when I was bouncing checks and letting bills slip from omth to month. I guess I am depressed because now that I am working harder to pay my bills, I can't spend money on fun stuff.
I think I probably walked about 7 miles yesterday, which is a good thing. I just wish I brought my pedometer so I could have kept track.
Anyway, I think I am going to fight the lethargy and do some housework - hopefully I will snap out of this 'woe is me' shit and get grateful for all of the great things that I do have in my life.
I hope everyone is having a great day!
Lots of Hugs &
they were running this car on the flatbed, and the sound of the engine made me so wet. Is that wrong? I love a good hard running engine, add a little chrome and it's time to change my panties.
I took my son and his father out to the Good Guys Car show in Pleasanton, which was fun. He didn't have any money so I dropped $30 to get us into the show, then another $25-30 on food, which cut into my t-shirt, sticker money a lot.
After that, I dropped off my ex and picked up my daughter (she didn't want to go to the car show). We went to the Cherry Festival, a street faire here in San Leandro. It was fun, but the tickets for rides and games were about a buck apiece and everthuing was three to four tickets. I got irriated because I didn't want to spend more money.
I just got a raise and my boss told me that I would get a $1,000. bonus too. I got the raise, which was great, but the bonus didn't come through. I paid some bills and now I am fucking BROKE again. I remember the days that I could spend $30 a day on beer, but that was when I was bouncing checks and letting bills slip from omth to month. I guess I am depressed because now that I am working harder to pay my bills, I can't spend money on fun stuff.
I think I probably walked about 7 miles yesterday, which is a good thing. I just wish I brought my pedometer so I could have kept track.
Anyway, I think I am going to fight the lethargy and do some housework - hopefully I will snap out of this 'woe is me' shit and get grateful for all of the great things that I do have in my life.
I hope everyone is having a great day!
Lots of Hugs &
they were running this car on the flatbed, and the sound of the engine made me so wet. Is that wrong? I love a good hard running engine, add a little chrome and it's time to change my panties.
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
hozer:
Things will get better and its good to be unmotivated once in a while. Just come down to Florida, help me find that 3some and we can have good times lol. But i know how it is in some cases, I dont have kids but I know what it is to be broke. Keep your head up.
lilcupcake:
yeah I am thinking that she may actually look forward to it being that her cousins will be there to play with! fingers crossed! I tell ya, if I ever make it out to California one day (have always wanted to go) I will have to look you up for a cup of joe