I've been clicking on update for the last three days, and then not really updating. I have a lot of feelings that i want to express, but every time the blank box comes up all of my thoughts come rushing in and i don't know where to start. So i quit. i guess that lets you know a little bit about me.
One of my good friends moved back to maine. it's sad. i miss him already. whitelight left with him. she'll be back though. regardless, it will be impossible to fill his space. he's a good kid. he's always there when necessary, even if he doesn't call for like a month, you know it's just his bitch face boss, not him.
The next day my mom called and asked me if i was depressed. this was after she guilted me about not calling my family (namely my grandma. my mom says "are you just waiting for her to die" of course i started crying... duh mom.). i love them, but i'm just... i don't know... anyway... of course i started crying, cause i'm a big fuckin pussy and now she's worried, which she shouldn't be, cause i'm not depressed, i'm just unsatisfied. most people are unsatisfied. that's what keeps us wanting more right? if i was satisfied i wouldn't really be... right? I suppose that's really just a cop out...
my love life is pathetic. i think that may be the biggest reason for the sudden mood swings. i miss the love... really just the touch, but whatever. enough feeling sorry for myself.
other than that shit, life is going pretty well. i'm doing things, which makes me feel better. productivity takes my mind off of how much shit i really have to get done, or atleast how much shit i need to deal with.
my camera betteries are dead, so i'll give you an old picture. this is an example of how lazy my cat is-
i love her. her name is trixy, but for the most part it's cat.
anyway. that's it for tonight. i'm tired, lonely, slightly drunk, but mainly sad.
until next time~
keep the love alive.
One of my good friends moved back to maine. it's sad. i miss him already. whitelight left with him. she'll be back though. regardless, it will be impossible to fill his space. he's a good kid. he's always there when necessary, even if he doesn't call for like a month, you know it's just his bitch face boss, not him.
The next day my mom called and asked me if i was depressed. this was after she guilted me about not calling my family (namely my grandma. my mom says "are you just waiting for her to die" of course i started crying... duh mom.). i love them, but i'm just... i don't know... anyway... of course i started crying, cause i'm a big fuckin pussy and now she's worried, which she shouldn't be, cause i'm not depressed, i'm just unsatisfied. most people are unsatisfied. that's what keeps us wanting more right? if i was satisfied i wouldn't really be... right? I suppose that's really just a cop out...
my love life is pathetic. i think that may be the biggest reason for the sudden mood swings. i miss the love... really just the touch, but whatever. enough feeling sorry for myself.
other than that shit, life is going pretty well. i'm doing things, which makes me feel better. productivity takes my mind off of how much shit i really have to get done, or atleast how much shit i need to deal with.
my camera betteries are dead, so i'll give you an old picture. this is an example of how lazy my cat is-
i love her. her name is trixy, but for the most part it's cat.
anyway. that's it for tonight. i'm tired, lonely, slightly drunk, but mainly sad.
until next time~
keep the love alive.
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chitin:
*hugs*
fotojenyk:
funny