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I just read every journal I posted here. Wow. There were 363 in total. I split it up into two sessions today.

Well that was appropriate to a kind of recap of not just the last year but the last five years basically.
It lets me see things more objectively which is good.
I never actually write personal things directly in detail that often, but I could still remember times from reminders in the entries.
So it's given me a kind of odd and overwhelmed kind of feeling.
I used to be a lot more self aware about rehashing my personal history.

Here are some people I'd like to pour out my 40 for:
CandyCox basil123 Ardnazak Rowan hellSforHeroes BionicfemmeX billyfivecrows zenhell tretiak xip illbillzillbub sugarmamapr farridac illbillzillbub London Bionicfemme BlixaSinister Bijou lilyluv
zotted or anon: Y sqook joyrider Vrulovwrath johncocktoastin tic_tac_toe
Missing in action: Linz sunfeather Adelina Elvgrenink


One thing's for sure for the last 10 years I've been "trying to get my shit together".
Well... I give up! It's never going to happen.... so there.

There was a journal entry in 2003 writing about a "todo" list from 1999, and it's the same kind of thing that even today I'm trying to do!
This is what I've consistently failed to do:
* have a reasonable diet or sleeping pattern
* make my place presentable
Well that's not fair, It's all relative I guess. You get it kind of together, and then it falls apart again, or something else has to get together.

Well anyway,