freckle

why do i get hooked on boys so hard and fast?

then i get sad when they don't call. my brain knew they weren't going to call.

i need to listen to my brain more often

or sometimes they do call, but just want to be friends, or to tell me they're getting back with an ex, or just to tell me not to expect them to call again... the world is kinda polar like that... the icky ones call, and the nice ones don't.

but i'm a hypocrite. i don't call sometimes, often. not always 'cause i dont like them, but because i get scared. i'm so damn noncomittal lately.

i just want someone to take me out. i want to go to movies, concerts, dinner, bowling, drinking, or just fucking stay home build gundam models and watch ronin over and over... what's so bad about that huh?

i dont really want to be a girlfriend. i just want someone who calls when he says he will, and for some other reason then just to get laid. and i want to hang out once or twice a week. and i want to be able to wear my pajamas around him. and i want to have lots of good sex.

i'm cute, i'm nice, i'm not clingy, i'm cool with people's friends, i'm in mensa, i'm not terribly girly, i make people cupcakes... what's the deal?

this stupid holiday is getting to me. longest emo post ever.

as for those cupcakes... they're sitting in my dorm, totally unclaimed