freakqueen

i fell in love again. I fell out of love again. I sabotaged it to be honest. And it hurts. And i am going blind from the pain. And i was so nauseous i puked up my dinner [not all, but a good mouthful]. And im sorry...and i'm unforgiven.

And i think i would've handled the situation a lot better had so much not rested on the line. Too much hope, too much love, every bit of what's left of the heart that i can feel beating against the leg that i'm resting my chin on. Well, actually, my chin is resting on my knee.. which is attached to my leg so i didn't lie.

- i think "heart" and i see a mental image of this organ that pumps blood. But when i think of him, all the pain radiates from my chest. And the pain radiates with every beat. -

I'm going to be OK. A very minor set back. But i can't help but hope... you know?