I used to weigh 138 pounds and could run 2 miles in 13 minutes flat. Then I got married, had kids, and was introduced to microbrews and good weed. I still worked out off and on but nothing like I used to. Now, after some major weightlifting I weigh about 220 with some fat I still have to burn off.
I miss being sought after by other women but I kind of don't. It gets annoying after a while. Also, the little teenage bastards next door pose a threat to my family and my things.
I miss being as sober as a I was when I was a kid. I miss that feeling of everything being new.
In other words....I FEEL OLD.
I am a closet exhibitionist and that is why I admire Suicide Girls. These are girls who are under normal circumstances probably would never just take their clothes off for anyone. The ones I pick are absolutely gorgeous to me and I would love to spend the night with and have no strings attached.
But thats another thing that is making me feel old: these younger girls that are 19-25. I cannot believe that I am getting that old and they are just now learning their needs and wants. They probably want a family and kids or a stable partner. That, or they are money hungry all-night clubbers. I have been there, I have done that, I have seen A LOT of bullshit come and go. I've partied harder than most.
I just don't want that crap anymore. I want romance and friendship. I want simple gestures of intimacy. I want the security of a nice home and food stocked in the pantry. I need these things. I need more than the single life. I need...love....
And I don't need love from just one person. I need it from friends, family, and my lover. These young girls just don't understand this. At least thats what I believe. They want a guy all to themselves. They really believe that marriage is forever and that having kids with someone makes them stuck with you forever. They believe they are the only person in a man's life and should be the center of his devotion.
Well....you can keep all that. I'm over that. I need.....AGAPE'
I miss being sought after by other women but I kind of don't. It gets annoying after a while. Also, the little teenage bastards next door pose a threat to my family and my things.
I miss being as sober as a I was when I was a kid. I miss that feeling of everything being new.
In other words....I FEEL OLD.
I am a closet exhibitionist and that is why I admire Suicide Girls. These are girls who are under normal circumstances probably would never just take their clothes off for anyone. The ones I pick are absolutely gorgeous to me and I would love to spend the night with and have no strings attached.
But thats another thing that is making me feel old: these younger girls that are 19-25. I cannot believe that I am getting that old and they are just now learning their needs and wants. They probably want a family and kids or a stable partner. That, or they are money hungry all-night clubbers. I have been there, I have done that, I have seen A LOT of bullshit come and go. I've partied harder than most.
I just don't want that crap anymore. I want romance and friendship. I want simple gestures of intimacy. I want the security of a nice home and food stocked in the pantry. I need these things. I need more than the single life. I need...love....
And I don't need love from just one person. I need it from friends, family, and my lover. These young girls just don't understand this. At least thats what I believe. They want a guy all to themselves. They really believe that marriage is forever and that having kids with someone makes them stuck with you forever. They believe they are the only person in a man's life and should be the center of his devotion.
Well....you can keep all that. I'm over that. I need.....AGAPE'